Give me a break!

Bye 2011

2011-12-31T02:30:00.003+08:00

great mashup :)

these songs brings me flashback of what i've did throughout the whole year. Although it feels like a LONG... year with full of shiets and some good stuffs.. few anchor events that made an impact this year.. the good and bad ones.. =/

the great flood on February
the flood aftermath struggle
final year project
death of Kiki and Fluffy D:
semester extension
friend breakup
made new friends and great friends
graduated
family crisis
job hunting
got myself a new pet cat! Roxy <3
stomach ulcer

someone once told me, if throughout the year, you felt as if time flies so fast then it is not a good year, coz you've done nothing much, learn nothing much and nothing much to yearn for. a good year is that you've felt that time flies slowly or moderately.. and full of "happening" events. that's what MAKES that year a great year..

maybe my 2011 wasn't that bad afterall :)

so.. 2012?lol.. i'm ready ;) bring it on!

2012 will be alot more better.

so everyone,

HAVE A GREAT NEW YEAR 2012!

;)

Bangau oh bangau..

2011-11-27T01:46:00.003+08:00

stop bangau-ing!

get it?! ;)

This is real life..

2011-11-27T01:17:00.002+08:00

I finally finished my studies.. yes. graduated *PROUD*

well.. the joy of graduating only lasted for merely 1 day?

without me knowing it.. i've already now on my way to a new chapter in life.

feels like everything back to zero point.
a brand new start.

a new start to look for a new pathway in life..
not just me, i think my family is on its way on a new chapter too..
therefore
so many "eventful" stuffs happened lately..
things don't always work out the way we want it to be..

eventhough i say its tiring, its painful, its harsh, its frustrating.. and the story goes on, i realize.. like the song..

that everything that im experiencing.
is real life..
and in real life.. nothing is perfect.

but in real life..
things will never stay bad all the times.. things will also never stay perfectly the way it is all the time.
nothing stays the same forever..

therefore, what im trying to say is,

even though things seems to be in a rough now.. but in the end i have a strong feeling that we will made it. in the most glorious ways.

:)

watch me/us ;D

Graduation? Supposingly...

2011-09-09T00:34:00.004+08:00

Its Friday, 9/9/2011 now, officially..

few years back.. if i do not have the thoughts of giving up on my studies i'll be graduating by this weekend now.. throwing hats.. supposingly~

yeah i screwed up.. it was stupid because i did it on purpose. i wasn't right in the head at that time.. so yeah.. =/

well doesn't everyone have that screwing up moments in their life?

(here i am with my defensive pattern)

so here i am now.. i'll be lying if i said i am ok now.

i am not ok now coz ..

most of my friends were asking if i will be there on their graduation this weekend. to be honest i wanted to go.. i am trully happy for them really. i want to take pictures with them, throw hats with them. laugh. be with everyone for the last time before we go seperate ways..

the problem is, i am.. not.. graduating.. along.. with... them...

i told mom i wanted to go.. and i said i'll be fine.

after hearing me, she got mad and scolded me.. and then

she asked me.. "what if u're there.. and suddenly u're not fine at all?"

yeah.. what if i am there.. and i found out that i am completely not fine at all?

on second thoughts..

i still have finals coming up.. this is my final moment to make sure everything goes well so i can graduate..

on another thoughts.. if i go for their graduation this time.. when the time comes, will they do the same for me in return? i doubt it..

by that time, i doubt they've probably forgotten about me already..

well this feeling feels like deja vu, i remembered the me 11 years back.

at that time it was swimming competition.. i wanted to join. but Cikgu Ali didn't register for me for the reason, SKCC did not join any swimming competition for years ever since Ruyi sister left the school.. something like that. (more like he's just too lazy to help me register).

on that competition day i was crying alot, feeling sad and angry.. for i've trained so hard for nothing.. what's more my friends laughed at me.. saying..

"what is this? You? swimming competition? who do you think you are? you're so fat. i doubt when you jumped into the water, the pool dries up.. ha ha ha ha ha.. do you think anyone can just joined a swimming competition JUST like that?! ceh!"

anyway the following years i joined by myself without that shitty teacher's help.. and got my ways towards MSSM lol.

Therefore, as a conclusion,

the moral of the whole story.. (althought it might be irrelavant.. or totally irrelevant~)

so what if i've im late by one semester?

even the story of the race between the rabbit and the tortoise proves that its ok to be slow.. we just need to move at our own pace..

what if i've made the wrong decision at that time? the point now is that i've been given a second chance.. i have another chance to make this right don't i?

so, as long as i graduate in the end.. is still good eh? therefore, its still not my worst yet. it is not the end of YEO LI SA YET! :D

to my friends,

congratulations to all who've already made it.

i'm very proud of u guys.

but i can't join you yet..

because, i have more important things to do..

i'll catch up with u guys.. so watch me ;P

心

2011-09-07T05:51:00.004+08:00

i was watching Himitsu no arashi just now..

Aoi Yuu was the guest.. i got interested on her.. coz she co-starred with Sakurai few years back in "Honey and Clover movie"

so in HnA, she was promoting her latest movie at that time.. entitled,

"Raiou" or aka, "The Lightning Tree"

instead of attracted to the movie, i got interested in the background song of the trailer instead. xD

song by Maika - Kokoro

Aoi Yuu and Masaki Okada are both so cute together in the mv.. ^^

ahh.. too bad i hv finals tmr.. or else i'll start watching the movie already..

"Raiou" is a love story.. (from my understanding by watching the trailer) lol.. According to Matsujun, its a modern type of Romeo and Juliet story.. =/

bet its gonna be a tragic love story all over again.. but it seems interesting at the same time.. so i don't really mind now :D haha.

short hair~

2011-09-07T05:45:00.003+08:00

i've cutted my hair~

just few days back..

so its kinda short now~

lol.

gosh..

i look like some 5 yr old kid =.=

lol.. :P sorry got taken away with the webcam

haha.

no im not trying to be cute.. just playing with the webcam function haha.

FYP.. what have you done to me?

2011-08-23T19:03:00.002+08:00

i just realize, i've been wearing the same shirt, and the same pants ever since yesterday..

what embarass me most is that i wore the same shirt and pants to library yesterday and i've returned to the library today, as in now (blogging frm library) with the same outfit..

=.=

yes i stink now.. and i can't go home.. its raining so heavily outside.. and i forgot my umbrella while i was rushing to see Dr Lee.. =.=

and i've just realize i haven't ate anything since last night.. my stomach is grumbling like crazy.. and what make it worst is that i forgot to bring my purse along with me..

i've been rushing my thesis deadline like crazy that i totally i forgot about myself lol..

this is the first..

FYP, what have you done to me?

=.= rain.. faster stop.. i wan go home, bath and eat..

Crazy little thing call love...

2011-08-14T06:21:00.003+08:00

Ha.. just finished watching some Thai movie lol.. copied the show from Thung Lim last last week? haha.. Mario Maurer (aka Shone.. lead actor fyi) is cute lol..

trailer~

story about a girl, Nam have a huge crush on Shone, a popular guy, a pretty boy in school.. well she did almost everything to get his attention, including following some superstitious book that teaches on how to get a boy to fall for you, something like tat.. eventually.. she became pretty~

=3 so pretty~

anyway this show is just too sweet haha.. reminded me of some good old days back =x lol.. and some human being~ :P i wonder how is he doing now? :D

anyway.. back to work.. i need to rush my FYP (final year project) =.= deadline due next friday..

im so screwed.. still stuck on chapter 1 *sigh* why is my progress this slow? =.=

well actualy i know why =x

ok now.. bb ^^

long time no see?

2011-07-23T18:40:00.005+08:00

long time no see~ RAIN!

ahh i missed rain :D tell u a secret.. i can control rain~ LOL!

why i said so?

because it always rains whenever i said it will! :P

i wake up this morning with an annoying sun rays striking in through my room window..

i got annoyed and thought to myself.. bloody hot sunlight. U SHALL DISSAPEAR TODAY! RAIN SHALL COME.. MARK MY WORDS~ .. . .. .. .....

.. ..

and so i went to uni, not long after tat, rain pour like mad! WOOHHH!!! *excited* \o/

hohoho.. i can be the weather god anytime now :Pv

its still drizzling now.. but this afternoon was HEAVY! \o/ got soaked in the rain this afternoon.. *HAPPY* :D :D :D :D

anyhow.. another thing long time no see..

i have this "SUDDEN ANNIVERSARY PERIOD" attack this morning.. finally.. i feel HEALTHY all the sudden~ ^^v

it was so sudden.. i wasn't prepared.. found out in the middle of my extra classes.. and i was like "OH SHIT!" -immediately rush home-

i mean i've been allergedly diagnose with "non-existing pregnancy" for almost one year now.. (if u know what i mean) somehow it feels like i've finally delivered out some "non-existence fetus" @_@.. i wonder if this explains much of my mood swings these few days..

well..

anyhoo~ ITS OUT!!

IM A WOMAN AGAIN~~!!! \o/

Gastric ....

2011-06-21T07:12:00.003+08:00

Yesterday night.. all the sudden i got attacked by gastric. around 12am =.=

it got so so so so so pain, i can't barely sit properly, lie down properly, stand properly..

ended up vomited twice =..= disgusting like crazy.. i can still feel those.. ugh.

after tossing and turning, in and out of the bathroom, for 3 hours, i couldn't take it anymore..

i don't know how.. i manage to drive out to town to the nearest 24 hour clinique..

but it was not open..

.....

the pain got worse, so i tried sitting in the car waiting for the pain to subside but it didn't..

after 20 minutes, i thought i would die there in the car.. i ended calling up suk xia asking for help.

i trully thank her for tat.. she came right after and send me to the Kampar Hospital. (the least place that i want to be in - why? coz kampar hospital suck to the max)

as i've expected. there's no doctor.. well just nurse.. or aka "assistant doctor" he said so himself. =.=

he ended up gave me some magnesium syrrup kinda thing and the pain started to subside. but its still hurting.. so he ended up asking a lady nurse to gimme a jab on the butt =.=

after 2 hours there. the pain really subsided so we went bck.. drop by 7-11 buy some bread and soya while suk xia ate her early breakfast

after i got home the pain comes back again.. ugh. i ended up drive myself out to the nearest 24hours clinique.. it was 7am tat time. it had to see a doctor! not an assistant doctor =.= just in case something "MORE" than gastric.. coz it was so so so so painful..

in the end the 24hours doctor said it was just gastric.. but it was kinda severe type.. so im not allowed to eat sweet, spicy, salty, fried stuff.. and the list goes on.

told mom about it.. got myself nagged =.= and then said if i dont take care of my gastric it would turn out to be some kinda cancer talk.. lol..

=.=""

oh well.. wish me well.. it still hurts though.. i eat also pain.. no eat also pain.. why are you like this STOMACH?!

PS : for kamparians, especially students.. a little piece of advice, if you're living alone and u had some sort of health emergencies late night.. 24 hours clinique is still available. i didn't know really.. if u happens to visit there around 2-4am.. the clinique seems like there's no one it in.. still don't HESITATE to call out or just ring the bell at the left side of the big door.. someone will come out and attend to you. but u have to wait at least 10 minutes for the doctor to wake up and wash his face.. =/ don't be suprise if u see him attend to u in a sleepy condition. =.= well that's kampar clinique for u. its better than nothing really.

update and trully happy fathers day :D

2011-06-19T05:00:00.005+08:00

hey hey.. its been a while since i blogged here.. if u guys noticed, i've deleted my chatbox. since random unknown visitors or aka spammers has been spamming my blog with their advertisement for quite sometime now.. so i decided to delete it off..

i realized some ppl tat i've been stalking all these while has neither deleted their blogs or have changed their url.. so some links can't work.. but i'll deal with that next time :)

since its 19th June 2011 today, i'll like to make a shout out to my dad. it's his birthday today and its FATHER's DAY!

well even though its impossible for my dad to read this but still..

Pa.. HAPPY 51th BIRTHDAY! and happy father's day.. im sorry i couldn't go home to celebrate/spend time with you due to my assignments and class tomorrow.. even though i wanted to. I do misses u alot! i know times are hard lately, so please take good care of your health and not over worked yourself.

lastly, thanks for always be there for me :D when i need it. love you dad..

-lisa

pissed off.

2011-05-13T00:44:00.000+08:00

ahhhhhhhh... i don't wanna do this anymore.. D<

im having my last final paper tomorrow.. i should be happy.. but im not.

hell its STATISTIC! MATHS! NUMBERS!!! D< *pissed*
i don't like it.. i don't get it.. i don't get any of it.. especially that ANOVA THINGY! one-tailed ANOVA is still alright.. but wtf is this 2-tailed?!!
fk post-hoc.. if its done then its done la.. WHY ANOTHER EXTRA STEPS!! ugh..

*throws calculator* *cries*

yeah im suppose to be studying right now.. =.= *wipe tears*
but still its annoying.. everyone.. most of my friends had finished all their papers and yet im stuck here.. doing maths that idek D:

i was reading sho's otonoha entries.. [to release stress] it made me wonder.. Sho is a Keio boy ne? and he major in econ ne? how nice i can have him come here and teach me statistic? im sure he knows how to do ne?

*sigh..

I dun wanna do maths anymore now can? :'(

this is really a pain in the ass.. :(

i should be grateful..

2011-05-05T02:36:00.004+08:00

i've been busy with my finals lately.. where to make sure i study i've been "camping" alot lately in the library..

seriously.. idk if UTAR is being poor lately.. but they seriously need to change most of the chair here.. its really a disgrace -.- no its not vandalism.. its just too old.. =.=

anyway.. back to my post. while i was in library lately i bumped into a few of my friends who happens to "camp" there as well.. learning.. the thing was.. i kinda bumped into a friend.. my foundation class friend. it has been a while since i saw him. he looked so happy to see me lol.

the usual conversation, how are u, wad u doing lately.. and he told me he's no longer majoring in psychology as well.. still he was so into the subject he kept asking me if i find psychology interesting and a few stuff.. well he seemed so happy discussing "psychology" with me lol.. so i kinda asked him why he suddenly change major.. he said it was coz of his result. o.o? im not sure how the whole story goes.. as i didn't asked further.. coz when he was talking about his current major, he doesn't look as happy.. and he was like..

"you so good.. get to take psychology" with a forceful smile.. o.o

still, from this discussion with my friend.. it somehow made me think..

that i should be grateful.. that i was able to choose what i wanted.. and take full responsibility with what i've choosen and not complain when things get hard.

when some ppl who actually want and loves it so much but they can't have it..

so yeah.. :)

i should be grateful.. :)

I'm all i have..(Boku Ga Boku No Subete)

2011-04-23T20:03:00.004+08:00

I ask these familiar days flickering in the window
What would have happened if I’d chosen a slightly different future that day?

Everybody longs for something and gets hurt
And we all surely spend our lives treasuring the one present we’ve chosen

I’ll set out walking one more time, as I am, through the sadness
Down a nameless road that belongs to nobody
Tomorrow, yeah, I’ll keep heading toward my dreams
Worrying, laughing, laughing
The person I am here and now is all I have
That’s the one thing that won’t change

If I had been honest with you that day instead of pretending to be strong...
That thought flashes through my heart
It hurts, but I feel a tenderness now

Everyone meets and parts with people and makes their own memories
And lives through each new tomorrow

I’ll embrace my life and my destiny
To make each and every thing sparkle
I’ll run, run, run, run through spring, summer, autumn and winter
The one thing that’s for certain is the path I’ve made
That’s the one thing that won’t change

Yeah, when I’ve accept the anxiety of stopping while something’s still incomplete
And the time that’s gone by so fleetingly
And myself as I am
I’ll believe in myself more than I do now
So that I can clear the way for my future with this vow
So that I can make this feeling known

I’ll embrace my life and my destiny
To make each and every thing sparkle
I’ll run, run, run, run through spring, summer, autumn and winter
The person I am here and now is all I have
That’s the one thing that won’t change

Romaji

Moshi boku ga ano hi sukoshi chigau mirai wo eranda to shitara
Yurete iru mado ni utsuru minareta hibi ni toikaketeru

Hito wa daremo akogare kizutsuki tada hitotsu eranda ima wo
Taisetsu ni shinagara kitto ikite iru

Arinomama de mou ikkai aruki dasou kanashimi koete
Dare no demo nai na mo naki michi wo
Ashita mo sou yume ni mukatte
Nayande waratte waratte
Ima koko ni iru boku ga boku no subete
Sore dake wa kawaranai

Moshi boku ga ano hi kimi ni tsuyogari mo sezu sunao de iretara
Futo mune ni ukabu omoi
Setsunai keredo ima wa itoshii

Hito wa daremo deai to wakare ni sorezore no omoide kasane
Atarashii ashita wo zutto ikite yuku

Boku wa boku no jinsei mo unmei mo dakishimete yukou
Hitotsu hitotsu ga kagayaku tame ni
Haru natsu aki fuyu wo hashitte hashitte hashitte hashitte
Tashika na koto wa boku ga tsukutta michi
Sore dake wa kawaranai

Sou mi kansei de tachidomatta fuan wo
Hakanaku mo sugisatta jikan wo
Arinomama no jibun wo ukeiretara
Kono chikai de mirai wo kirihiraku you ni
Kono omoi ga todokimasu you ni
Ima ijou ni jibun no koto shinjiru yo

Arinomama de mou ikkai aruki dasou kanashimi koete
Dare no demo nai na mo naki michi wo
Ashita mo sou yume ni mukatte
Nayande waratte waratte
Tashika na koto wa hitotsu dake

Boku wa boku no jinsei mo unmei mo dakishimete yukou
Hitotsu hitotsu ga kagayaku tame ni
Haru natsu aki fuyu wo hashitte hashitte hashitte hashitte
Ima koko ni iru boku ga boku no subete
Sore dake wa kawaranai

♥♥♥♥♥

嵐

Graduation Dinner

2011-04-20T23:32:00.004+08:00

I just came back from my "class" last gathering dinner before everyone shoots of different directions in life.. well.. im remaining for another semester for some reason :)

yeah.. our last time together was really awkward. seriously.. it made me wonder how things turns out this way.. its no longer fun anymore. i found myself not talking ever since the dinner starts.

it wasn't like this last time.. maybe its just the location wasn't right?

or maybe the awkward one was just me?

anyway.. i soon found out that we weren't able to have a class graduation trip. coz most of our members has voted to not go..

im glad it failed though.. im seriously broke eheheh.. and yeah it would be awkward. D:

since everyone is so drifted away with their own groups. and cliques..

at the same time i can't help but to feel sad.. we're not able to go.. coz it was suppose to be that way.. go on a trip with friends should be fun.. hmm.. ah i don't know anymore.. it doesn't matter anyway.. since my uni life were never really that "enjoyable" lets just finish this once and for all and let it remains as a memory :)

maybe for me it's suppose to turn out this way :) well.. since everything happens for a reason ;)

weekend getaway~

2011-04-20T22:57:00.007+08:00

Im back in Kampar! finally.. im tired hahah.. i went KL with my family last saturday for PC fair. stayed in Aunt Christine's house for the weekend. Took bus down from kampar while my parents drove up to kl~

i was considered lucky? on the exact day was the grand official opening of the new Pudu Bus station... i seriously have no idea. i was kinda got suprised on how it actually came out

gorgeous rite? fully air-conded.. somehow it reminds me of airport.. hmm

waiting place.. near the staircase down to the platform where the bus are suppose to stop at.

anyway.. had a great time in kl.. ^^ went pc fair. we're suppose to just go look around, look for a new pc coz my house pc spoiled. and lina wants a hard disc to store all her arashi's stuffs.. yeah. ended up we just bought HD. not just 1 but 2! xD dad asked me if i need one..

OF COURSE YES! xD and he got me one thank you dad.. i love you! xD

Here it is~ xD my new hard disc! Seagate 1 TB! xD USB 3.0 upgradeable + easy backup software \o/

got it for RM 310 ^^v

i don't know whether its cheap or what. but my friend say is bloody cheap @_@

anyway..

after tat went shopping with mom and dad..

while my sisters all went back to my aunt's place to spazz + fangirling on arashi. =.=

mom got me a bag~ \o/ and a pdi blouse wee~~ ^^ its been a while.. since everyone was so relax on everything.. spending good times together :)

Went to see "Rio" with my cousins xD

and went to airport to fetch Ah ko back from London. :)

then went home..

hectic but i don't hate it

2011-04-12T10:18:00.002+08:00

i've been rushing on my Final Year Project (Thesis) lately.. supposingly to have this pre-presentation on my thesis with just from chapter 1- 3. its been very hectic lately.. i get frustrated alot, get stress out alot, procrastinate alot.

but that's the fun part isn't it? :) the fun part of actually "doing something"

heh.. i don't know why but it just feels great althought now im really really really worried how my presentation outcome would be later.

especially presenting in a lecture hall with a bunch of juniors watching.

ah.. i can't imagine it. its so scary. >.< still i know i'll rock the presentation! ^^ (wow.. i actually hv self confidence out of nowhere - should be alrite?) xD

well wish me luck. im gonna go prepare now (^^)//

-OUT!

Can't wait..

2011-04-01T15:37:00.003+08:00

one can't wait for a person all the time.

and one can't always expect others to wait for them all the time.

we have our own lives.

we need to move on.

we can't move on if we keep on waiting.

for something to happen.

or expect something to happen.

therefore,

don't blame others for not waiting

when you can't keep up with them.

instead, think..

think.. what can you do

so you can keep up with others

and over take them.

as an individual,

we must take responsibility

and take charge of our own life.

not our parents, our friends,

but we, ourself..

please know this.. my dear friend.. Tiffany Hugh.

what is family?

2011-03-27T20:34:00.007+08:00

i've been holding up all these thoughts to myself. but i can't keep it to myself anymore.. its so painful to keep seeing my dad getting all these mean attack and harsh "what you should do" and "what not" violating his obedient characteristic. that's just pure mean. really..

he was so grateful.. when u guys gave him a helping hand. during hard times. when u guys helped him, he was so touched and grateful he cried so much. :'( yet he felt so guilty troubling everyone.. he kept telling me "Lisa we need to be grateful.. next time if you manage to come out to the society successfully, u need to thank these ppl, repay them. don't be like me.. eat until so big still need to rely on others," u know.. he kept blame himself, saying he's useless.. making us suffer so much and trouble everyone :'( if you know my dad, u know this isn't true. he's a very nice, obedient, humble, kind, very patient, bloody hardworking guy yet all he get is shit and rubbish.

you know,

today i finally realized something.. i see it and i hear it with my own eyes and ears and i want to say this..

as a family.. u guys are so mean. we have our own rights on our own things. how dare you said such thing to my dad..

"we help you so much yet you are enjoying your life there.. don't know how to appreciate, don't know how to think"

bloody hell.. why do you sound like we're looting you? do you think WE WANT THESE?!! do you think my DAD FEELS GOOD RECEIVING THOSE?! he kept blaming himself! did i mention my dad has a depression and suicidal history? he's improving yet another hit of flood comes and he loss another time.. he's trying his best here.. WE are trying our best here.. struggling with out might to stand up again.. :'( how could you say such mean things? :'( to him.. :'( its not fair you know.. :''(

don't you come compare us with other people.. them are them.. we are ourself.. our abilities and resillence abilities are different. yes he can do it, why can't i? but its still different! a mental retarded person and a normal human.. yes they are both human.. are they the same? no. why are they different? their individual abilities. things we can do and things they can do.. sometimes they can do it even better, even our IQs are different. ( im just giving an example and this is really no time for me and i've never thought of discriminating anyone here.. )

if you're going to help us with some kind of motive behind.. then dont! that's low. u can do so much better than that. if you doesn't feel like helping.. then dont! doing do it half heartedly and expect something in return.. what's more, u threaten us with your almighty help that u've provide us to get things in return. that's wrong.. i feel so dissapointed, and sad after hearing such thing happened. what's more i've always look up to you all and think of you guys highly.. i feel sorry for my dad.. really. he's always such a good kid and a great dad :'( just that shit always happens to him. :'(

really now.. are u really that good? that u could say such things?

really.. now.. aren't we a family? :'(

stop this please.. :'(

FML

2011-03-26T03:05:00.002+08:00

stuck in a loserville village.. stuck in a loserville uni.. with a bunch of loserville people.. live with a bunch of loser.. led a loser life..

FML.

since when i've became like this?

since when life is this sucky?

that i've no choice but to become such loser?

and yet you think i wan't this?!

you expect me to change wad? mix with those non losers? well they're all losers to me. as in "i wanna be cool wannabe = makes them losers as well" including myself.

maybe this is the place where losers gather?

i'm tired.

really tired..

when can i get out from this place?

i don't know why i choose to delay it either.

i don't know myself.

and im tired.. of being myself. being with others.

really FML

The Great Escape

2011-03-16T20:52:00.002+08:00

I don't get this song when it first comes out.. until recently.. its a great song. :) indeed.. i'll throw all the bad things away, forget yesterday and make the great escape :D and of course.. these ppl don't know me anyway.. that's y they bitch around ;) then i'll watch them die and let them burn slowly in hell.. xD hohoho..

anyway.. dedicate this song to all people out there who feels exactly like i am now :D hope u make the great escape in life~ :D

Paper bags and plastic hearts

All our belongings in shopping carts
It's goodbye
But we got one more night
Let's get drunk and ride around
And make peace with an empty town
We can make it right

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
'We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway

Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight

Tonight will change our lives
It's so good to be by your side
But we'll cry
We won't give up the fight

We'll scream loud at the top of our lungs
And they'll think it's just 'cause we're young
And we'll feel so alive

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway

Watch it burn
Let it die
'Cause we are finally free tonight

All of the wasted time
The hours that were left behind
The answers that we'll never find
They don't mean a thing tonight

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They won't know us anyway

Watch it burn
Let it die
'Cause we are finally free tonight

Fluffy.. RIP.. :'(

2011-03-12T21:20:00.011+08:00

17 OCTOBER 2009 - 12 MARCH 2011 (7.20pm)

i'll forever miss and remember
the cute unknown hamster who came to my house in a tissue box.
with an injured nose.
with those pair of innocent eyes.
with an unknown gender.

even though i was clueless..
but i was excited to see you.
u were named Fluffy.
coz u were always so cute.
not just the way you sleep.

the way that you eat.

the way you ran on the wheels..

the way you drink water..

the way you always act weirdly..

the way you always fight with kiki..
then
after that you cuddle and sleep together so peacefully with kiki everytime.

whatever you do.
you've never fail to amuse me with all your
fluffy-ness
one of a kind personality.

Moreover,
you were always so obedient.
unlike kiki,
no matter how cranky you are
whenever i disturbed your sleep
or how many times i tried to annoy you
you will never once bite me.
but to just glare at me while munching on your biscuit grumpily.

However,
i am really sorry.
that i couldn't do much for you as an owner.
u were not yourself lately,
i noticed but yet i didn't take any actions

yet this past few weeks.
you were so weak you couldn't move much
yet you tried your best climbing the cage bar up high
so you could look at me.
and responded to me whenever i get home from class
so energertically greet me
and melts away all my stress and bad days.
eventhough you wasn't feeling that good.

T_T

im so sorry.
it was already too late when i realized.
you couldn't even finish your favorite food
that i bought especially for you today.
i wanted to buy carrot. but it was out of stock
so i got you bread. your 2nd fav.
but you were too weak to eat it

T_T

My dear dear Fluffy..
you will be missed dearly.
forever and always

May you rest in peace.

2011-03-03T15:27:00.003+08:00

My happiness rate for today :

(1-10)

UNHAPPY :(

Reason : I Don't Even Know. Just gloomy..

i want to go home.

shall i? k then. let me pack my bags. ^^

a car? for me?

2011-02-28T01:54:00.005+08:00

my family came up to kampar 2 weeks ago.. i don't know what makes them to such decision..

they're finally giving me the car! haha.. well at first i was excited.. but now im not -.-

i wonder why.. i feel scared and freaked out for 2 days straight..

i wonder if my student life will change with the car existence?

it'll be more convenient yes.. but hmm..

oh well maybe i think too much.. what do you think? should i just take it? or call up my mom and say i don't need it?

too much to handle.

2011-02-15T03:09:00.002+08:00

everything happens so fast lately, i don't know where to start.

firstly, the flood, then the conflicts and misunderstandings with relatives during the flood,

flood damage, the "not so happy" CNY...

then followed by so many things that i have to gave up during this period for families.

i hate it. why we always having all these bad luck?

everything just started to go back to normal. and now this.

its tiring.. mentally, physically and emotionally.

still i have to be stronger. what the shit =.=

sigh.. on second thought.. if i don't help, who will?

oh well..

Cheer up me! :)

its ok.. next time, when im successful enough.. chances came by easily and moreover as many times as i wanted!

next time.. we wouldn't be so unlucky. in fact, we'll be filthy rich! xD

and mom and dad can just sit down and "goyang kaki" hehe..

yeah.. i have nothing to lose. :)

things i do for family is so much worth it!

indeed i made the right choice :) good job me! :D

i don't understand...

2011-01-24T03:02:00.001+08:00

i don't understand how calculative and pathetic a person can be? the more i think about it the more offended i am.. i was acused by my housemate for taking her spoon just now.. i mean or maybe she doesn't mean it.. but its just so rude.

she was like "excuse me... i think u are taking my spoon. can you give it back to me?"

seriously.. what is "EXCUSE ME" mean? don't i have a name? don't you know me? and why on earth do i need to use your spoon? you sound like you're so sure 100% that its me. and you make me sound like some theif even SPOON also wan..

seriously i don't even know which is whose and which is not whose.. coz there are just SO MANY SPOONS OUTSIDE THE TABLE.. which is your spoon or not your spoon and i don't even know WHICH SPOON you are talking.. -.- i only know which SPOONS is mine.. coz i've been using it since young.. dad brought it up all the way from segamat and no i didn't put my spoon on the table and everything in that blue tupperware.. its mine..

i mean y are you so particular? its just a damn simple spoon.. and its not like its made of gold =.= how pathetic can you be? a spoon only cost how much? seriously -.-

and what proof you have that im using ur spoon there's so many other housemates? what makes you THINK i am taking your spoon? do i look like a theif to you? ur spoon missing and its a big deal? what about mine? my butter, my eggs, my shoe, my bicycle pump, my mop, my umbrella, my broom previously and my dustpan.. someone broke it.. and left it there.. did i acuse it you? pfft.. and yet u want to be calculative with me? you have no rights.. YOU KEEP YOUR STUFF PROPERLY.. then only you talk.

future? i see nothing..

2011-01-24T00:03:00.003+08:00

ha.. future.. lately alot of these question that were popped up in my daily life.. such as : ...

"what are you majoring? wow! psychology.. that's a very good course"

"what do you want to do after you graduate?"

"are you going to take on your masters?"

"are you going to work first?"

"if your going to work after you graduate, what you want to be?"

"what field of psychology interest you?"

seriously i don't know.. the more i think about it.. the scarier it is.

the more i thought about it, the more i want to cry... T_T

why?

because i can't think of any T_T its so depressing..

Mr Cheong, my intern coach said "do things that excites you most! things that make your heart beat pumps like crazy, do it"

and no.. psychology is like... zzzzzzzzzz effing shit i lose my interest. no heart beat.. it just dies..

you know usually on the first week of a new semester, whenever there's a new lecturer, they'll be like asking us questions like "why do you take psychology?", and ask us to introduce ourself and our reasons on taking psychology..

whenever there's this situation i'll ended up BLANK.. hmm.. don't know what to say.. while others goes like "oh.. the reason i took psychology is because im interested into becoming a clinical psychologist" or.. "oh, coz im interested in humans" or "because i want to help people" or watever the reason is it just seems to be so ambitious..

so why do i take psychology? hmm.. it was just a moment of interest i guess? i've seriously.. never dream of myself taking such course.

if you asked me of i've regretted taking psychology.. well.. sometimes.. coz i can't see what is in front me.. i can't see what's waiting for me.. i can't see the opportunities.. and yet its not easy. its no joke. i wonder if this is what people said as "psychology? no future lah that one"

or maybe this is just something that i have to go through.. well i do believe in fate.. :)

maybe by going through such things will lead to something even better? well who knows. ;)

i remember me discussing this issue with my coaches during intern.. coz they asked us interns what we want to do after guaduate.. and i told them i don't know.. so she was like "don't u have any childhood dreams.. which those u dreamt of becoming when u grow up?"

lol.. so i told her i have lots.. i once wanted to become a news caster hahaha.. and i always wanted to be a musician.. u know where my life is always full of "music" haha.. or maybe major in music.. so everyday i can spend hours and hours playing songs i loved.. studying about the songs written by famous musician~ xD then once a while u have some concert lol where everyone come to hear u play xD kekekekekeke... ah..

i forgot wad she says after i said those.. i dun think she said anything i can't remember.. hmm..

wouldn't a music major even have the higher chance of "no future" ?

i dont know.. did any of you have such experience before?

still i got no rights to complain anything.. compare to other people who are forced.. or more like no choice but to choose and take up psychology.. well at least this is my own decision.. therefore i got to be responsible for it ;)

anyway.. share something with u people :)

i don't know who is he.. but the youtube channel name is akbobada.. akbobada is a website.. who sells korean piano sheets. mainly korean songs u've heard in kdrama.. or kpop.

i wonder if he's the guy who compose all that? love the song xD

im currently learning this song.. "That man - Hyun bin" secret garden OST :)

anyway.. enjoy listening to it ;)

goodbye my friend~ ♥

2011-01-10T02:00:00.005+08:00

was helping my dad to clean up the store room today.. took us the whole day =.=

basically cleaning up my old toys.. my sis's and bro's toys since no one is playing with it anymore. we used to have so much toys! yes "Much" because it was just too many.. i think its the last time we're clearing those.. before this he did clear off my toys a few times without my knowing =.= but this time i was there.. it was a sad sight.. D:

one by one.. it was taken and put into boxes and plastic bags..

he just take without looking and put it in. =.=

and he almost get rid of my tracy doll and my barbie~

i stopped him and he was like.. "no use ady laaa... throw laaaa.." *hand me the box*

luckily mom came in and stop him on time T_T thank goodness..

i save a few =x

it was hard.. D: we basically grew up together. D: its like throwing ur friend away?

anyway this is the last goodbye.. D:

the whole van D:

i thought he was gonna give away those toys to the shelter homes kids but he left it at the recycle center!! T_T

gosh! if i knew he would do that i wouldn't have let him took them all these while T_T so wasted.. some of them are still in good condition.. :( hopefully the recycle center guy see them and put them at the shelter homes? =/

sigh.. wads gone is gone now.. D: farewell my good old friend D: i'll always miss u guys. D:

even the last 2 bucket is empty now D:

empty~ D:

cleaning these.. ahhaha my video tapes! missed those days.. hehe

found my old pictures while cleaning hehe..

i think this is 1 yr old?

3 yr old? hmm hehe

5 yr old~

hehe so cute~

i think this is around 8 yr old~ haha.. gosh my dad look so young @_@

k ler.. i lazy wan blog.. i wan go sleep dy gdnite all~ ;)

what, why, how?

2011-01-05T17:12:00.004+08:00

what is it that you do, only then it is called life?

what is positive thinking? how to have positive thinking?

what gets people going? what makes them to move up and forward?

what does it mean by doing your best? how to do a 100%?

why do we need to strive so hard in life?

why do people strive so hard? what is the purpose?

what is happiness? how do you get happiness?

what is the true meaning of being filial to your parents? how to be a filial daughter?

why people doesn't get satisfied? is it a type of greed? or is it a type of motivation to move forward and have a better life?

what should i do to live a better life?

how to make people around me to be happy?

how to do well all the time?

actually i have all these answers to myself.. but all these while everything i do doesn't worked out.. how can i do better? what should i do better? what can i change better? is 2011 now.. everyone is setting their new year resolution, well.. i kept thinking but i don't have one..

still..

i know i can do awesome.. i just need to get right back on track.. yesh.. i got it now.. my new year resolution.. GET RIGHT BACK ON TRACK! how?

sleep - i need good sleep to get good energy and good state to get back on track
diet - my eating habits.. im all out of shape. i have to stop avoiding and give myself stupid excuses. i need to eat healthy.. bloody hell im having a very serious type of gastric right now.. for 2 days straight my gastric hasn't subside.. even thought i've seen doctor and take pain killers.. anything that i ate now is painful.. its a feedback my body is giving me feedback to eat healthily..
exercise
set, manage, do - set things/goals that i want to do, manage my state, then do
no procrastination, no laziness, no delay
pray - for some reasons i stop praying for 3 years, in these 3 years i suck.. might be one of the causes.. for some reason is because i don't pray, i don't believe, then i don't believe in myself, no confidence, suck, don't think straight? hmm..
less talk do more - less talk as in no excuses

*lisa these are the 7 BASIC necessities that you must do. today mom says i don't do well because i didn't and i never try to do my part. im giving all excuses.. she say the reason i came across so many "sucky people" and "sucky stuffs" is because i don't do well in my part, i give excuses and all these negative energy that's y i'll attract all these "sucky stuffs". she says i don't have to feel sorry for myself, i don't have to blame myself for not doing good enough as a daughter, i don't have to feel guilty for all the useless stuff.. i don't have to do alot of stupid stuff or say useless things to impress her, i just need to do well in my part.. be independent and not doing all the things that will make her worried. my part is to do things i need to do now.. so now im gonna do my part.. THIS IS MY PART as an individual, myself, a daughter, and the eldest daughter.

ok.. clear.. k bye now im off!

Awesome 2011 everyone!

2011-01-05T17:11:00.001+08:00

2011 is here!

may this year be the most awesome year you ever had!

Blast You? = die? o.o

2010-11-04T15:27:00.010+08:00

Facebook... ah.. a word that everyone in this whole wide world is familiar with. Upon hearing the word "facebook" makes you feel happy? fun? sociable? interesting? bored? useful?

i don't know.. to some people facebook is convenient especially when it comes to reminding us stuff such as your friend's birthday.. all year long u'll never forget your friends birthday because you have facebook birthday reminder!

friends or no friends at all.. you just greet and wish them a happy birthday sincerely or just as an "act" of "friendliness" well.. literally.. people who trully remembers their friends birthday became harder to detect.. D:

well one thing i notice most is this.. people/friends wishes you to have the best birthday on your wallpost.. in this way..

seriously.. wat's this "blast" thingy about? when i saw "blast" i thought of this~

BOOM!!!!

and this~

=.= *facepalm*

sorry but it still sounds so wrong to me.. i know what they're trying to imply there.. you know wishing the bday boy/girl to have the best time of their life as if they're being blast with full of excitement..

but still BLAST~

reminds me of my BM tuition teacher... Mr Goh.. most of the time the students will talk and make noise behind the class.. and he'll got so angry and scold these kids

"may God blast you! shut up or get out from my class!!"

lol.. still its not a really good wish to me.. its like u're wishing the ppl "death" idk maybe im just think too much..

still don't these people have other things to say aside from just "happy birthday.. have a blast one"????

=.=

PLayful kiss~

2010-10-23T06:55:00.002+08:00

Finally.. my kdrama that im currently watching.. Playful kiss..

ENDED...

thank goodness..

im gonna miss this drama :D

the plot is originally awesome enuff..

the manga itself is awesome already.

still the kdrama version is alright..

Kin Hyun Joong's acting improved? i guess.. still stiff.. tsk.. i couldn't feel it

esp that epic kissing in the rain scene.. no feel at all D:

wad a waste.. coz it was an epic scene..

oh well he's still good looking..

can't find ways to hate him..

everything just go away when u look at him

muahahha...

taiwan version is still better.. but korean version the actor were like 10 times more gorgeous.

if u ask me.. good looking plays an important role or just pure skill?

haha.. i don't wanna answer tat.

you tell me.. :P

if i were to rate this show.. i'll give it 8/10

7 for the awesome plot.. 1 for the acting..

still kim hyun joong did his best.. i expect him to improve more in future!

all the best! hwaiting! :D

alright time to go home now.. *wave*

i was just thinking... hmm

2010-10-20T03:02:00.002+08:00

2nd day of new term.. i enjoyed my day~ :D although it was dead tiring.. 3 lectures back to back without break.. =.= thank goodness i had enough sleep last night :)

during my disorder of childhood and adolescence lecture.. i wonder.. really.. lots of abnormalities in an individual are normally cause by their childhood backgrounds and memories.. and usually these children seems pitiful. where the people around them, like teachers, relatives, family, adults.. just kinda approaches them the wrong way or something that they did or say to the child that's misleading that cause them to have these "abnormalities" in future, when they grow up.

i was just thinking.. wouldn't the world be a better place if everyone knows and learn about psychology, the pros and cons of their actions, the consequences of their actions, the do's and don'ts.. then wouldn't it so that there will be less mental illness and psychopath in our society today? hmm..

but then that will leave us psychologist useless.. LOL..

gah.. watever.. :P

wad do u think? :D

1-2-3 Chocolate Microwave Mug Cake

2010-10-18T13:57:00.004+08:00

3 tablespoons unsweetened cocoa
2-3 tablespoons sugar (according to desired sweetness)
1 tablespoon flour
3 tablespoons milk
3 tablespoons vegetable oil, such as canola
3 tablespoons egg white or plain Egg Whites in a carton
1/4 teaspoon vanilla
optional:
1 teaspoon chocolate chips

Add milk, oil, egg white and vanilla. Stir vigorously for 2 minutes, making sure to get all ingredients incorporated. Sprinkle chocolate chips on top, if desired. Bake in microwave for 2 minutes. Check to make sure it is cooked on the bottom by lifting it a little with a spoon. If it is runny, cook 10 seconds more at a time until done. Do not overcook, as it will be rubbery. It puffs up and may overflow, but that is OK, it deflates somewhat as it cools.

source : http://welovedeliciousfood.tumblr.com/post/872860172/1-2-3-chocolate-microwave-mug-cake-3-tablespoons

haha imma try this :D

i wonder if this work? =/

Weekend getaway - Grandma's 76th birthday celebration

2010-10-07T01:47:00.008+08:00

Went to Malacca last weekend with my family to celebrate grandma birthday.. Uncle Alex called up last Friday, told us that he had already book up rooms at a seaside hotel call Everly Resort Hotel, in Malacca.. all my relatives will gather there to celebrate grandma birthday.. :D and asked us to meet them up there on saturday.. it was rather last minute, and we didn't had enough time to service the Rusa van.. on the journey halfway, our van died and the whole van couldn't even start. Dad called up the indian foreman uncle to come take a look, it ended up beyond our imagination, the "timing belt" broke off.. ended up we had to ask ppl to come toll our van =.= everything turned chaotic where dad started to lose patient and mom went all naggy again =.= in the end the indian uncle fetch us all the way back to Segamat again to switch to Kelisa..

we reach Malacca around 8.30pm and meet up with my uncles, aunts, and cousins at a seaside restaurant called "seaferer" lol.. my uncle mispronounce it while telling me the directions to the restaurant in the phone.. he keep..

"turn left ah.. then you will see the seafella,"

lol.. i was all confuse.. and ask him back. "why need to see the seafella?"

he was like "nonono.. SEAFELLA ah.. the restaurant name lah.. aiya.. because we're here mah!"

LOL.. the restaurant was really cool.. it was just by the seaside.. :D

Mom and her twin, my aunt :D

after reaching for 45 minutes our food haven't came yet.. the wind started blowing so strongly.. and rain started to pour in. everyone got wet.. in the end we had to stay in the restaurant bar to get away from the strong wind.. it was so strong that the tables and chair got blew away..

my aunt and his youngest son, Jun Chen :D

he got upset coz we all got trapped in the rain..

that's my eldest aunt, my mom's big sis behind :D

After the rain subsided, we decided to take away the food and checked in to our hotel rooms.

goodness its not room! its a suite! :D my mom has 11 siblings.. 3 families didn't showed up.. they can't make it.. some of my cousins can't make it as well.. so altogether only around 33 people gathered.. we booked 5 suites :D some has bigger suites some were smaller type.. some shared and for our family, we have it all to ourselves :D :D :D

Us enjoying the "take away" seafood..

Everyone was so hungry that we didn't even bother to sit down.. just stand and eat! nom nom nom.. xD

We had out dinner first while the others went back to their suites to change and bath.. we are the only ones that haven't ate.. coz we were late..

after that, everyone gathered at Uncle Alex's suite..

cupcakes! :D my cousins bake it themselves..

Kuek kuek's family cupcake :D

well.. my mom's biological family surname is "kuek"

therefore its called kuek kuek cupcake xD

did u see there's lots of ducks? :P

after blowing off candles, everyone just hang around chit chatting till midnight :)

view from our suite window :D beautiful eh~

carpark~

getting ready to start off on the 2nd day :D

All : we're going swimming later~ :D

Dad : faster get ready and go down for breakfast

this is after breakfast and the swimming~

got to now pack up and check out.. :(

after checking out, we went for lunch together with everyone..

bid goodbyes,

and we went shopping~ :D

bought j.co before going home..

we had donuts for dinner :)

and that concludes all.. the unforgettable birthday celebration.. hmm..

Semester break

2010-10-07T01:06:00.006+08:00

hey all~ its been a while i know.. hehe..

still having my semester break.. 2 more weeks to go.. =/ i think i had the best "holiday" so far hehe.. everything is going well lately, family is doing great, dad is back to normal! :D everything feels back in place.. it feels really really good.. :D

i didn't do much stuff since sem break started, all i did was anime anime, kdrama, kdrama and more kdrama :P catch up things that i couldn't do when i was doing my intern.. slack around.. fetch my bro and sis to sch, tuition, drive my grandma around.. catch up with few friends, catch up with my "old pal" Mr Piano :P ahaha.. its been a while.. my fingers are all stiffed =.= so sad.. feels like there's no point at all, learn all the way till grade 8 seems wasted.. no worries.. im slowly catching up, it should be alright :D

early morning drive... wilson and lina to sch~ *yawn*

hangout and had breakfast with my grandma.. after fetching lilu to tuition in the morning..

she would tell me lots of stories hehe..

guess who's that?

that's my grandpa.. in his 20s handsome eh? xD

didn't really celebrate mooncake/lantern festival.. but saw some kids playing lanterns outside mcD.. took it while waiting wilson and lilu went down to buy sundae xD

well, at least i get to eat mooncakes :D

the fact that im really scared of dogs... surprisingly i enjoyed playing with Barney hehe.. he's just 3 months old? i think? He's Doopey's pup, Lim's dog..

look how cute he is!

sleep dy :D

Mad person sleeping while playing the piano.. lol..

camwhore with wilson xD

Elvis dad? xD

lilu..

bath my hammies :D

stalk wilson sleeping xD

watching "Haru, An Unforgettable Day"

2010-09-28T15:26:00.005+08:00

omo omo.. xD Kimbum, park si hoo is in it!! park si hoo that guy from "prosecutor princess" the gorgeous lawyer~ xD big bang will be in it too.. yunho from tvxq and chaeyoung and da hae.. im so watching this! hehe..

tat's the trailer lol.. u can watch the whole drama at this website.. (with eng sub)

http://www.haru2010.com

what's more... super junior is singing for the OST! xD haha..

till then.. im gonna go watch now! :D

no regrets

2010-09-02T19:27:00.006+08:00

i went through a job "self appraisal" yesterday for the very first time in my life.. the experience was really "something" hehe.. one thing i love about cybercare is i realize i learn alot about myself.. even though its just "job appraisal"

i did great really.. im not trying to comfort nor confront myself to protect my alter ego lol..

yesterday after the appraisal each and everyone talks about their experience.. and share about their overall evaluation marks.. to tell you frankly, i only got 85 marks lol.. it was an A for my Industrial attachment but compare to the others mine wasn't as "high" as theirs.. most of them got 98 marks.. wow.. really at first when i heard about their marks i was a little "sour" about it lol.. hey.. sometimes u can't control the comparative feeling alright? but still i was really happy for them. some of them didn't want to share at all.. =/ oh well..

today, i dont know how i did it but i coincidently came to find all our evaluation form.. i downloaded it all our of curiosity and took a peek at it =x (seriously if anyone found out i did this i'll be dead)

you know what? after reading all our evaluation, i think they deserve a 98.. really.. i am really happy for them.. :D compare me to them.. they really throw a 100% at it. me? i learn things too slowly i guess? hehe.. but its all good.. even though i got a 85.. no regrets really.. i did throw a 100% in the end after all.. i just need to work harder.. i did great.. these all are just my feedback.. i am amazing and i'll do even better.. you know what? i don't even have to compare myself with them.. me and them are truly different.. its like comparing an apple with an orange.. if i wanna compare.. compare me and the old me.. i really fuh.. the old me will never talk like this xD

85.. ;)

im proud of myself.. even though its not perfect, i learned a great lesson in life. everything happens for a reason.. me struggling with my studies and no coincidently got accepted into cybercare and now this.. everything for a greater good.. i did great and im so proud of myself. no words can describe how i am feeling right now xD

thank you team you guys made me realize so much even till the end.. i really love you guys.. can we hang out more? haha.. :D this make me wonder.. hehe should i change my timetable in sync with u guys? LOL~

omg im so proud of you lisa i could cry T_T lol... ok now im hungry what to eat? =/ hmm..

What now?

2010-08-29T14:46:00.002+08:00

my intern ended yesterday.. =| i dunno to smile or to frown.. dunno to be happy or sad that it has ended.. for the past 3 months i woke up every morning thinking what i should accomplish today.. even though its Sunday.. Today.. i woke up doing the same.. then only realized that it has ended..

Thinking that everything will be back to normal before my intern starts.. everyone will now go back to their own lives.. the kids will have a normal Saturday evening and a normal Monday evening.. no more weekly Thursday KL trip anymore.. no more KPerak, no more ICT training with the kids, no more fooling around at kperak's lobby and having a relaxing hangout after that, no more crazy bak kut teh visits at gopeng with the guys, no more weekly mcD visits lol.. no more hanging around in the office.. i remember the guys was making fun with anthony's name lol.. i will miss ah sia's never ending lame joke, elaine's cute outburst, mr yiang ping's crankiness, eric's non stop fart, siaw jiun's bossiness and sarcasm. its not like we wont see each other again.. but the days us working as a team.. we really ROCK! haha.. i will miss the kids really.. i will miss the chaoticness of the ICT session where the boys ask nonstop for help.. xD i will miss playing with them.. i will miss the silent treatment the boys gave us.. and will miss the day when they suddenly come joke around and laugh with me, i will miss the day when they suddenly come gave me a helping hand.. i will miss the girls too.. i will miss teaching them piano.. miss discussing super junior with them, playing handball with them, miss talking to them, miss the day where everyone come to hug me.. we've become so close in such short period. i will miss Sharmini giving us weekly coaching, giving us support, i think through her coaching, i really did change alot, i will miss Mr Cheong giving all those positive supports. i will miss those days us roaming around in kl looking for the correct place that we've never been there before, the days us travelling around in the car the whole day. i will miss the days where we spent overnight. the days we fight with each other, the ice lemon tea, those lame horny jokes lol.. those never ending swearing.. the freezing-ness of the office.. the stuck-in-the office- coz raining days, the days in cafe one, the keropok lekor, those little naughty kids in cafe-one.. i wonder if they'll remember us? haha i still can remember their names perfectly.. Aina, Khairul, Iman, Shahrul, lol.. the days in the Gardens School, the Alexendra joke.. keke.. miss those days where everyone was dead broke, the days where we spent money like water.. the.. ah...

i will really miss those days.. everything now is like just a short beautiful dream. well i guess everything will come to an end eventually.. T_T

i promised myself i wont cry.. T_T

really.. i want to thank you all, i want to thank Eric, Sia, Yiang PIng, Elaine, Siaw Jiun. Thank you for always being there to support me and event listen to my useless dramas, thank you for putting up for my childishness and being so patient towards my blurness. and lastly thank you for creating this such wonderful experience together with me in this 3 months. i really love you guys.. i want to thank the kids, Salvation Army girls and boys, Vision Home. you kids is really the best, you are all very great kids. thank you for participating with us and willing to join us in our journey.. i really love you guys too.. T_T

Even though it has already ended.. everyone will now back to their lives before everything started, somehow, it wont be the same anymore with the past 3 months before we met.. everything has changed.. this is really MAD! the whole program is really MAD. it changes so many things that is is so annoyingly amazing..

really... thank you very much.. :)

What an awkward morning

2010-08-10T10:40:00.002+08:00

I left my bike in uni yesterday.. therefore this morning, i thought i would take bus to uni but i missed it. so i was panicking on what to do to get to work on time at the bus stop.

(FYI : my working office place is in my uni)

out of the blue, my colleague's car pass by in front of me. i got all excited and wave at his car. and his car stopped nearby the bus stop. i figured that he saw me and letting me to have a ride to work. Little did i know, the whole incident wasn't exactly the way i thought. he didn't stop the car for me. He was going to drop his friend back home.

After his friend got down from the car, i hop on to his car without thinking much. Both of us got shocked to see each other. i was surprised to see him still in his shorts and house clothes. He was surprised to see me suddenly in his car.

then he told me "eh.. im not going to work today," and i was like "huh?! not work? *panting* nvm la.. you send me to office first, i dun have my bike today, i left it in uni yesterday remember?" i said it without thinking.

then after 1 minute only i figured out how rude i am. the whole situation was 100% awkward.

im like forcing him to send me to work.

*sigh* what was i thinking? =.=

The hair story.

2010-08-07T21:17:00.003+08:00

i cut my hair today~my hair just kinda outgrown in these 3 months time and i can't no longer stand it. My eyes is already small enough. my long fringe completely sealed away my eyes lol.. so went to PC hair Corner at new town, opposite Maybank that role. My friends say it was good.. so i thought i gave it a try.. it turns out, i find it rather sucky.. The girl like dunno how to cut.. =.= she made my fringe look dumb =.= or maybe its because its the worker who cut it for me?

i told her i want a trim.. i dun think she really trim much.. she just touch my hair around.. comb here comb there while keep promoting their hair treatment. and she even asked me twice..

"girl u want to shampoo your hair?"

seriously.. i told you i've already shampooed before seeing you. are you that desperate to earn more? or is my hair just not "clean" enough? =.=

anyway lesson learned.. next time when you go to a "new" hair saloon, always asked for the boss to cut it for you.. not the worker.

OH... and also.. not go to a hair saloon with a big banner with lots of hair treatment promotions. your ears will fall off hearing all "those"

2010-08-01T14:20:00.004+08:00

O God, refresh and gladden my spirit.

Purify my heart. Illumine my powers.

I lay all my affairs in Thy hand.

Thou art my Guide and my Refuge.

I will no longer be sorrowful and grieved;

I will be a happy and Joyful being.

O God! I will no longer be full of anxiety, nor will i let trouble harass me.

I will not dwell on the unpleasant things of life.

O God, Thou art more friend to me than i am to myself.

I dedicate myself to Thee, O Lord.

- 'Abdu'l-Baha'

To SWX

2010-07-30T20:43:00.003+08:00

i thought i should just forget that incident today.. but on second thought,

u killed my mood ady nvm..

still thick face ask me to help u buy stuff..

then after that u DIU me in front of our juniors!

then when the clock broke u go tell them "aiya she's like tat de la" and u make them misunderstood me... WTF.. no way..

go die pls

HOW DOES that make me feel?

u happy now?

zzzzzzzz

u bloody ruin my day..

Today....i....

2010-07-30T18:54:00.005+08:00

CHAPTER 1 - weeeeeeee.. o.O ??

how am i feeling? i feel like a person who happily skipped around the street.. then suddenly got slapped by a stranger and walked away...

my happiness rate drop from 100% to 50%

which already sucked enough...

CHAPTER 2 - Me, the pigs and the wolf

then came these 5 little pigs.. pretend to be innocent asking for food~ the wolf made me lose my cool~ and i exploded and broke the time machine..

my happiness rate then drop from 50% to 10%

the wolf wanted to look cool infront of the 5 dumbo pigs.. so he pester them and persuade them and trying to look nice.. what's even worse, the wolf was so desperate to eat he even offer to help the pigs to cook food for them.

sucked to be the wolf, the 5 little pigs didn't fall for his lame tricks and these little pigs turns out to be NOT PIGS AT ALL~!

they're HYENAS!

then the most shocking thing is, the WOLF IS NOT A WOLF TOO!!

he suddenly transform into a HYENAS TOO

oh nooooooooooooooooooooo

the story ends with them laughing at me till i die..

-the end-

zzzzzzz

these hyenas will die one day.. really..

good morning~!!!

2010-07-24T06:55:00.002+08:00

good morning people~!! :D :D

ah~ my flu subsided

its going to be a great great day today..

i can sense it! xD

having my leftover seremban siew paw that i bought yesterday in seremban as breakfast now :D

mmm.. yum yum..

after tis got to gather at siaw jun house..

going ipoh later..

meeting the kids from the homes.

oh i love my intern!

i love my intern!

♥♥♥

i need to start learning!

2010-07-13T15:05:00.004+08:00

i just realize that there's so many things that i didn't know.. and don't know how to do..

i am 21 and yet im still so ignorant in so many ways..

there's so much room for me to improve..

Things that drives me crazy..

2010-06-21T05:59:00.003+08:00

weekly report that i need to write on every week and emailed it to my advisor
the bug invasion - BUGS HAVE INVADE MY ROOM FOR 2 DAYS ALREADY AND ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY!! RAWRRRRRR
my messy room..
my hammies being filthy..
bug invasion..
home sick..
start too many kdramas and anime but never finished it till the end..
don't know where shall i continue my kdramas and animes that i've started
i miss my yeonana, yeolulu and yeoweewee.. mom and dad alot alot alot
the fact that i can't go home :(
PARK SHI HOO's HAWTNESS in "prosecutor princess"
im broke!
the fact that i can't go to b2st showcase and fansign this weekend :( :( :(
the bloody hot weather
BUG INVASION IN MY ROOM!!!!!!!! where the hell do they come FROM?!
i am period-less for half a year now.. i could have cancer started somewhere in my ovary already now.. =.= *scratch head*
im putting on weight when im not suppose to
i have so many kdramas and anime that i started and not yet finished AND YET I WANT TO START WATCHING NEW DRAMAS!!!! *smack self*
its 6am now and i haven't sleep! =.=
im hungry now....................... zzzzzzzzzz

ugh... i'm going crazy.. @_@

bye~

A little announcement~

2010-06-18T21:04:00.005+08:00

hey guys.. long time no see :D

just so you know i'll post less stuff in this blog in these 3 months time.

coz i'll post most of my stuff

here :

cybercareinterns.blogspot.com/

NO I AM NOT SHUTTING DOWN THIS BLOG
NOR MOVING TO OTHER BLOG
DON"T WORRY..

its just that i'm managing my intern blog..

i don't know why.. but my supervisor asked me to open a blog..

so..

i dun think i'll be able to be so motivated to post so many POST

and almost the same thing on 2 different blog

and work is tiring.. =.=

so.. yeah.. if u don't find any updates here then..

once again go here :

http://cybercareinterns.blogspot.com

support me a little k?

;)

but still i'll try my best to update on both this and that blog

ok.. till then ;D

2010-06-18T20:38:00.002+08:00

i thought i forget everything about you

but it seems like u were still there all along..

i hate you..

EEEKKK!!

2010-06-03T00:20:00.002+08:00

OMFG! a GIGANTIC COCKROACH

JUST FLEW IN TO MY ROOM!

I REPEAT A GIGANTIC ONE!

i think its my hammies size T_T

IT FLIES SUMORE!!!!

*freaked out*

T_T

This is where i missed my dad

T_T

where whenever cockroaches invade my room

he'll come to save me!!

and after he killed it with his bare hands,

he would make fun of me

freaking out

but its always the best

he always look so "yeng" when he killed cockroach

LOL.. T_T

how laa.. i dunno where it went!

but im sure its at my room door area.. somewhere there

T_T

i wan my dad!

*freaked out*

everything im not.

2010-05-28T23:42:00.005+08:00

have you ever watched movies/anime/drama etc etc on where the plot of the main character are always the "unknown" prodigy in some specific field.

u know where when he/she first discovers/tried some sports, events, or watever it is.. just first try.. and the people around him/her will think to themselves like "wow.. she's really something!" or "wow he's really talented! he beats me even its his first try!!"

and that main character bastard just doesn't know about his own ability and goes wandering around, clueless on how truly amazing themselves were..

and usually these prodigy main characters just happens to always screw up many stuffs and always gave troubles to people around them.. but still they are forgiven most of the time coz they always have the "personality" that made everyone admires and respect them..

annoying but admirable.. always get the spotlight wherever he/she goes.. people who are in the same "field" as them hated them like shit.

heh.. reminds me of someone i knew in the past..

im sorry im not here to brag..(and i dun really brag much =P) but that bastard prodigy situation feels like me.. ME!! ..... IN THE PAST.

perhaps im not a prodigy haha.. to admit it im not really that "great and talented" at that time..

ah.. i don't know.. you judge (i just mention what i known and see and hear i do not make up stories)

i was a state swimmer.. whenever i hit the pool i was envied by many lol.. yeah..

teachers adore me lol.. my studies, it was higher than average, i have LOTS of friends.. people know me wherever i go, i represents my school in any other competition, academically or non academic and most of the time i came back with expected results. i obtain lots of medals, certificates, i earn the title as the student who excelled best in co-curriculum of the year, the best female swimmer, for 3-4 consecutive years, i manage to juggle my time well.. i was in good shape, etc etc.. my family were so proud of me.. people around me admired me..

still, i always screws up lots of stuff and always create lots of problem to people around me.. still life is still great.. slowly after a few years shining so brightly.. i guess those glorious days started to fade away..

what actually happened to yeo lisa? seems like my shine is fading and its gone nowadays.

my studies are like shit or even worse than shit, i stopped my athletic life as a sportsman, my size doubled like mad, i got less self-motivation, wherever i go people don't know me, i become more introverted, i am not talkative as ever, whenever i got back to my hometown, when i hit the pool nobody recognize me but after asking "are you lisa?" ONLY then they knows me.. once, someone asked "wow... what happened to you?" and gave me the *unbelievable, oh i can't believe my eyes stare*

i can't seem to swim anymore..

i can't seem to be as "great" as i used to be anymore..

i can't seem to lived up to my parents expectation anymore.

i can't seem to be the "old"me anymore..

i can't seem to be the one who can do everything well in first try anymore..

i can't seem to be the one where everyone hated and admire me at the same time and goes backstabbing behind me so to make my life miserable anymore..

i can't seem to have so much motivation anymore

heh.. if someone who hated me in the past read this post, i bet he/she are going to say "SERVE HER RIGHT!" yeah you got me.. i never did said i was good..

seems like my position changed.. i am now as the same level as you now.. where no matter how hard i tried.. i am still right at the bottom.. while others just shine brightly in front and above me.. and whenever i really decided to do something seriously.. shit happens before i even knew it.. my life is a total mess, everything turns upside down. feels like a great downfall of the "not so great" yeo lisa. oh yay~ xD

maybe this is a punishment, a karma for what i "might" have did.. maybe i was cocky right back then.. or maybe i did hurt people around me on the process but i didn't knew it..

or is it maybe i didn't try hard enough? or is it because im just not tough enough that i thought i was.. or is it i am too overly confident about my own abilities? or is it i am really de-proving? or is it because i don't have enough self-discipline? or is it because i can't let go of my past and kept on stuck in that no longer realistic dimension? or is it because me, myself have some hidden issues or unfinished business? OR rather it is because i entered the wrong major? wrong course?

i don't know.. i realize i seem to have LOTS of regrets and LOTS of "IFs"

i no longer know myself anymore..

what i know now is that.. im slowly losing it.. everything..

got interrupted =.=

2010-05-23T04:13:00.002+08:00

the scene where i hated the most lol.. i am trying hard to concentrate but my family kept on interrupting =.=

i got used to it anyway ;D

and i think i play better tat way kekekeke..

anyway im not really at my best form lately on the piano.. i didn't get to play much after starting uni.. so its a little stiff

我不懂中文

2010-05-23T00:55:00.003+08:00

yeah.. i don't know chinese... maybe.. yes.. perhaps? hmm.. i don't know.. i left a comment somewhere in a youtube video.. asking stuff.. and some other people replied me

"how come you understand chinese but you don't know that?"

wow.. that's a very deep question.. it made me go blank for a while after seeing that question.. coz i didn't know what's the reason.. its very hard to explain? i don't know..

well.. see.. i do understand chinese. i can speak very fluently. if u ever see me speaking chinese you would think im good at it.. still sometimes i have a hard time understanding it myself.. its weird.. i don't know how to explain.. sometimes when i watch chinese/taiwanese drama.. i really have no idea at all what they're talking about..

maybe im not a pure chinese? hmm..

i can't read chinese character either.. =/ is it called chinese characters? or chinese words? or chinese letters? oh i don't know.. if i were to put it precisely, i can't put it exactly that i can't read chinese characters at all! well i can read most of the basic ones.. the title of this post? I USE GOOGLE TRANSLATOR! lol..

so what exactly am i? i dont know.. a banana? (where it is a nickname for chinese people who doesn't know chinese at all - where u are "yellow" on outside and "white" in the inside)

ah.. im confuse myself.. @_@

i speak chinese with my mom.. english with my dad or sometimes hokkien with dad. hokkien with my grandma. manglish/english/chinese/malay with my friends.

my cousins dun really speak much chinese as i know.. some didn't even understand :P

my uncles and aunt dun really speak chinese..

mom did tried her best to teach me haha.. by telling me much abt the chinese norms, stories, traditions, beliefs, etc etc.. but most of it just went trough my left ear and exit through my right ear.. hehe..

uh.. so.. what am i?

IM A MALAYSIAN-CHINESE..

get it? =.=

so quit asking coz i get offended most of the time and got annoyed explaining it.. and yeah.. dun send me chinese mail/sms

alright?

PS : sometimes, i really do wish i could turn back time.. back to my primary school years where i wont skipped those POL classes (idk wad POL stands for but usually its chinese class) on friday..

i would say yes when mom asked me if i want to get extra chinese tuition.

but nah.. im too lazy to learn chinese rite now :P the URGE of mastering chinese is not tat strong.. this "regrets" only appeared when i missed out the "cool" stuff that were only written in chinese..

so generally.. if u asked me if i've ever regreted.

i might say yes.. just occasionally ;) but its no big deal ;P

LAST PAPER!!!!!!!! RAWRRRRRR

2010-05-12T07:35:00.002+08:00

finally!!

my last paper..

"Counseling Methods and Techniques"

9am,

Herritage Hall

woot!

wish me luck :D

rain.. why so hot?!

2010-05-12T06:16:00.002+08:00

*the part where rain pulls up his shirt and show his abs while dancing*

LISA : kyaaa xD omg!! *sing : na neun ottoke~~ do the body wave~ na neun ottoke~~*

(FYI : na neun ottoke = what shall i do)

*drool all over her laptop*

ahh!!

2010-05-11T15:22:00.001+08:00

its already tuesday before i knew it!!

chiong ah!! for my last paper!

happy mama's day :D

2010-05-09T22:02:00.003+08:00

Happy Mama's day to my MOM!!

i'm sorry i couldn't be home..

to be "just there"

especially on days like this

i know even thought

through your mouth

you always say mother's day is nothing to you..

you always say everyday would be a mother's day to you

if we're being good and obedient

but the truth is u really expected something on this day doesn't it?

all i want to say is..

i love you mom..

even though i never really say it to you..

but i still think you're the best mom

you're always there when i needed you.

always so strong

always so supportive

always listening to me

always so cheerful

always so beautiful

and smexy hehe..

no matter how.. i wish you will still be strong..

and stay the way you are.

and also stay healthy always

to live long enough..

so i can repay you :D

with the goodlife

that you've always wished for

-lisa-

PS : also i would like to dedicate this post to all the mothers out there.. especially to my grandma, and all my aunts! hehe..

anyway i just called my grandma, aunt molly, my yi-ma, and aunt christine

hehe.. their reaction to my "random-out-of-the-blue" call was epic.. xD first i called up my grandma and it was really funny hehe..

Lisa : hello ah ma!

grandma: hello? hello? ahh.. chingli ah? (my another cousin)

lisa : *swt =.=* bo lah.. wa si lisa.. (means "no i'm lisa" i speak to her in hokkien dialect)

grandma : orhh.. chom mi lerh eh sia arhni kuan eh? (why your voice like this?)

lisa : haha.. emm zai.. ah ma ah... Happy mothers day!! xD (haha.. idk.. grandma.. happy mothers day!!)

grandma : orh... kekekkekekekekkekekkee okeh okeh..

lisa : ah ma no celebrate today meh? my dad they all din celebrate for you?

grandma : ahh.. nola.. they all so busy.. but they all got come visit me.. your mom make currypuffs for me, ah kor (aunt molly) buy alot of good food for me and eat with me *sounds happy and excited*

lisa : ah.. okeh okeh.. xD

grandma : u in kampar now yah?

lisa : yes.. i'm having my finals i can't go home :(

grandma : ahh its ok.. u concentrate on your studies.. when is your holiday?

lisa : after next week

grandma : ahhh.. then after tat come back for how long?

lisa : 1 week lor.. then after tat i have to go back to start my internship already..

grandma : ahh okeh la.. u sleep early la.. dun everyday sleep so late.. exam have to do properly ha.. um.. okeh okeh.. goodnite!

haha.. cute xD

conversation with aunt molly was sweet hehe.. she even asked me whether i called up my mom or not lol.. then i say yes.. then she ask me.. y so late oni wish? lol.. xD

i told her i was busy with my exams =x then she laugh.. and added "better than nothing rite? haha"

i called up yi-ma.. (my mom's sis) and she was so happy.. she was in genting.. i think she's in a middle of a party i guess haha..

and i called up aunt christine.. she was shy i guess kekeke.. that she dunno wad to say.. i haven't finish talking to her she ady faster passed the phone to maybelline and jovee

lol.. xD

anyway.. i never expect that calling up families and wishing them happy mothers day would be as fun and it makes you feel very good.. its nice :D

i always thought..it would be awkward and never have the guts to even try.. or even wished happy mothers day.. when i was younger, i would feel embarrass about it.. i don't know why..

but this is fun hehe.. i should do this every year ;)

oh ya.. i didn't manage to wish all my aunts who are overseas.. so i want to use this opportunity hehe..

i want to wish aunt charlie, aunt Suzannah, and vincent's mom lol.. happy mothers day as well :D

wish u all in good health :D

hehe

-lurve, lisa- ;)

nananana nu ABO!!

2010-05-07T00:44:00.001+08:00

black and yello hair FTW!

i also wan! lol..

nananananananana nu ABO! B-)

its not in my genes :(

2010-05-07T00:39:00.001+08:00

pikachu.. i feel you..

no matter how hard we try.

we still fall

i want to play an awesome duet too :(

2010-05-06T03:09:00.004+08:00

awesome version of the previous olympic song in china "beijing welcomes you"

from laputa T_T

from naruto omg.. it make me want to rewatch naurto all over again!!

norah jones - don't know why :D

this sounds more BETTER than the original version lol..

omg this is my fav xD hearts grow yura yura - naruto

blue bird by Ikimono Gakari - naruto
i have nothing to say more lol.. xD
i think he's playing spontaneously.. a rendition..

shu.. shu.. shushushushu...

2010-05-04T06:24:00.001+08:00

this cracks me up so badly! xD
haha.. its so funny

translation :

"Min Ho."
"Yes."
"From which star are you from?"
"I don't remember it clearly... but it was something like this. Shu...shu...shushushu..."
"AH!!..... M...me too!"

xD

i guess this is goodbye? :(

2010-04-28T14:13:00.006+08:00

tan yee ling officially moved out just now..

she moved out coz we're going to start our industrial training next semester start. so she'll be working in PJ as an intern in Malaysian care? if im not mistaken for 3 months.. whereas me, i'll be doing my internship here in kampar with cybercare.. so.. because she dun want to waste money on paying extra rent for 3 months on an unoccupied room.. so danish house said she have to moved out if she doesn't want to pay that extra 3 months rent. but they'll leave a room for her after her internship ends.. but with a condition she have to moved out ler..

im gonna missed her.. :( i know its not like i wont see her anymore.. just that things are not going to be the same again?

maybe we stayed together for too long? it has become a habituation.. you know.. "ahh yee ling will be there" or "i'll go back and ask yeeling on this this" or anything.. she would be there.. i've got so used to her presence that i've never thought of the day when we finally will go separate ways.. or how it would be like.. and i think i rely on her too much.. too much =(

sigh.. now she moved out dy.. who am i going to talk to when im bored? sad? or just simply need to talk lol.. from now on no more "kacau tan yee ling days" or discuss on how are we going to get to school on time.. gossiping on stuff and people we know lol.. share our happy stories.. who am i going to ask when i dunno how to do statistic? nobody to exchange textbook or share notes with me dy.. :( nobody to discuss with on sch stuff.. whose bathroom shall i pinjam when my bathroom is occupied? :( lol.. who's going to wake me up if i just overslept? :( who is going to borrow me her rice cooker? who am i going to study with for the finals? and midterms? T_T

i don't know maybe to other people it seems normal.. that she's just moving out.. but to me i think its something very new.. and it feels like i lost something very precious :(

it sucks.. :(

maybe we've been staying together for too long? 3 years? or more? since foundation :(

we've been very close since then..

ahh.. after this will our friendship become more distant coz we don't see each other so often anymore? you know after moving to kampar, u have your group of friends, and i have mine.. and we don't spend much time together already.. just that living together in the same house brought us close.. so now you've moved out will it still be the same? :(

i don't want to think about it lol..

geez.. i promised myself that i wont cry zzzzzzz

im going to missed.. the days i spend with tan yee ling as housemates.. lol..

ps : i know i'm being dramatic but i just can't help it :(

ugh.. stupid tan yee ling! why u have to go?! T_T

:(

2010-04-27T21:57:00.001+08:00

tan yee ling moving out tmr..

suyi moving out tmr :(

can i say no?

:( :( :( :(

study week in kampar

2010-04-25T20:18:00.009+08:00

i choose not to go home for study week this time.. i used to take the opportunity to go home everytime study week starts due to the distinct distance between kampar and segamat.

if i were back home now.. i'll probably be hanging around with my siblings

probably having mom cook for me :D haha..

i went home last weekend

she was making pizza for us.. :D

or watching double tv with mom and dad in their room while enjoying the aircond

if u haven't notice..

there's two tv in the room

they finally found a solution for their ridiculous fight over the tv all the time lol..

mom's watching her kdrama

dad's watching some show on tv..

its really funny haha..

anyway.. staying back in kampar for the study wasn't so bad and scary after all.. my housemate gayatri once told me abt her "terrifiying" experience she had while staying back for the study week.. something abt "human" figure that doesn't exist yeah something like that..

and because i stay in westlake.. so most of the westlake residents are all UTAR students.. so once study week starts, most of the students went home for their study week.. so the whole place suddenly turned quiet and really eerie.. which is what i thought of it as always.. therefore i'll go back every study week if i could..

well maybe because more and more students are coming in.. so the student population in westlake increases therefore its not that scary anymore? lol..

and i realize i feel more motivated to study compare when i'm back home.. maybe there's a "stress" air here in kampar? u know students stressing on their finals lol.. nvm.. i don't know what i'm talking about either lol..

well nothing much.. the internet line got more faster lol.. and its rather quiet here.. and yesterday kampar blackout for almost 4 hours!

yeah whole kampar..

it started at 5pm.. coz the whole town had blackout so i couldn't cook maggie at home since i'm not using the stove lol..

so me and siaw jiun went out for dinner.

yeah in the dark as well lol..

tiffany came and join us as wel..

we were so bored lol..

the evening was so "romantic" lol..

everyone had candlelight dinner

haha..

yeah.. that's about it..

i don't know what to blog anymore lol.. till then ;)

Personal Taste Craze

2010-04-25T05:37:00.004+08:00

Personal Taste Drama Synopsis

Jeon Jin Ho is a straight guy who pretends to be gay in order to become a roommate to his female friend, Park Kae In. His hobbies include organization and ironing, and he’s known for his stoic poker face. He’s a stickler for cleanliness, but he also has a talent for figuring out women’s feelings. Kae In is very trusting even though she has a habit of being betrayed. However that doesn’t stop her from giving people the benefit of doubt and Jin Ho is no different. How will Kae In react when she finds out that her gay roommate is not actually gay at all and that he has fallen for her?

taken from some website.. pls go google.. lol.. (im too lazy to think and write a synopsis myself)

i've started watching this kdrama 2 weeks ago.. its really nice xD
althought the begining of the drama has a "typical korean drama" plot.. you know.. where the girl is just pure dumb, innocent, but has a cheerful, and good hearted kind of personality where people take advantage of her and look so pitiful.. and a bloody handsome male lead with a cool personality, rich.. etc etc where he took pity of the girl at first.. then help her.. then fall in love yeah.. something like that

but still.. compare to any other typical korean drama this is like the far most best! kekekeke...
i'm on episode 8 now and loving it! hehehehe..

my fav part :

(kae in got into an accident while she was on the phone with jinho. jinho realizes and rush to the hospital to see kae in.. but he saw chang ryul was nursing kae in)

*song plays*

jinho : (stare at both kae in and chang ryul in jealousy)

*song singing.. Pabo cheorom~~~~~~ xD*

Jinho : (walks towards kae in and chang ryul) kwenchanayo? = are you okay?
kae in : (shocked) jinho-sshi..
chang ryul : wad are u doing here? o.O
jinho : (ignore chang ryul) how badly are u hurt? (touches kae in's injured forehead)
kae in : i didn't get hurt alot (awkward)
chang ryul : (grabs jinho on the shirt) what are you doing right now? you can't even love a woman.. why do you keep getting between us?!!
jinho : is it all about being able to love a woman?! (me : omg omg omg xD)
jinho : kae in-sshi.. are u able to get up?
kae in : eh?? what?
jinho : lets go..
chang ryul : (shove jinho aside) WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU"RE DOING NOW PUNK!!
jinho : (stern) im starting to love this woman. so don't interfere.. (grab kae in and walks away)

ME : KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

omg omg omg

jinho and kae in walk out of the room.. then jinho just stare blankly at the "IMAGE" of kae in.. everything was just his own thoughts..

ME : WTF?!!!! *throw pillow*

zzzzzzzzzzzz

im gonna continue watching.. so till then..

hehehe..

2010-04-17T05:28:00.000+08:00

Im going home today! after 2 months?

haha..

The Hotel City Craze

2010-04-16T08:51:00.004+08:00

OMG IS G-DRAGON!!!

G-D visited my hotel!!

*laughs*

what?! you don't know who is G-dragon? lol..

G-dragon is a stage name for Kwon Ji Yong

G-Dragon is the leader of a korean boy band known as Big Bang

BIG BANG

who is famous with their "Haru haru"(day by day) song

but i like last farewell more :D

get it now?

haha..

House Chores

2010-04-14T15:47:00.003+08:00

haha.. this is a total random post.. pops out in my head while washing the bathroom..

while scrubbing the tiles reminds me of lina.. coz she always hated washing the bathroom. even though the bathroom is very very very dirty.. she would pretend its 100% sparkling shiny and don't bother about it.. LOL

so i thought.. what is so wrong? what is so terrible for washing the bathroom?

wait.. correct me here if im wrong.. washing bathroom? o,O or scrubbing? cleaning the bathroom?

what is so wrong for cleaning the bathroom? i dont know why.. but some people think it's disgusting. what is so disgusting about? the algae on the tiles? the smell? the "slippery-ness"? but that's all formed by your body suds? o.O its because of you.. that's how it gets dirty.

compare cleaning it up with not cleaning it at all.. which is more disgusting? if u didn't clean it wouldn't the condition get even more worse? i can't imagine bathing in a dirty bathroom @_@ ew..

anyway.. i know it is a personal preference lol.. some people hate it some people were just force to clean it.. well others just weirdly like doing it lol.. in my case, i was force to clean it.. coz i can't bath in a dirty bathroom.. how can u be clean when u're in that situation? @_@

im not here to judge or anything.. its just some random thoughts that pops out in my brain while scrubbing the tiles.. I myself is not a very "well organized" or "neat freak" or some "clean" person lol.. my room now is still in a chaotic situation.. i vowed to clean it up today.. but i never did *laughs* i'm too "busy" :P

back home me and my siblings have to do house chores almost everyday.. i hated hanging up the clothes.. i prefer doing the dishes.. i hate taking out trash, i dun mind mopping the floor but i hate swiping it coz it'll get all dusty.. and my swiping skills suck! therefore, i HEART the vacum machine so much! :D heheh..

i dun mind washing the toilet, but i hate cleaning my room.. @_@ don't know why though..

mom would be so pissed up with my messy room.. and threaten me that she'll rent my room for some stranger.. or she would throw my stuff if i didn't clean it up instantly.. hahah..

either way.. house chores is always a bother!! who likes them anyway? not me! :P

my dear housemates..

2010-04-12T02:53:00.009+08:00

To my dear housemates,

it seems to have some misunderstanding on my previous post Paranoid

no offence.. but it was just my own silly thoughts.. i deeply apologize if i ever offended you guys.. i somehow got addicted to the internet recently.. and its really pathetic.. coz i started being paranoid when the line is being bitchy.. sorry i doubt u guys,.. i know u guys didn't use it..

i know i can be a pain in the ass sometimes.. especially my sloppiness and lazy personality and bad habits.. and where i mess up the common room most of the time...

even though.. alright i'm guilty..

im being honest here.. even thought i complain lots.. and being bitchy sometimes.. but still think u guys are the best housemates that i've known.. for putting it up and tolerate with me..

i really appreciate it.. really...

and suyi, when i knew u're moving out i was kinda sad.. lol.. i knew im going to missed u alot! especially those instructions u gave and helped me when i was so lost in cooking my own food haha.. u really helped me alot in cooking back then ;D

jia yen was always so sweet :D and xue er was always so nice to me.. ah kam who always laugh so happily xD and tan yeeling who is always there for me :D

deborah who is always so helpful.. thanks for fetching me to the hospital last time even thought it was already so late.. liwen who is always so nice to talk to her.. and to my ex housemate yanqing if u ever did came across this post.. u were always so cheerful and cute haha.. i really did missed u.. and the other yeeling.. u moved in last year.. even thought we don't talk and get to know u much, but still i think you're a pretty cool person :D

tina and gayatri who are always so fun to talk to u guys.. and was always so helpful whenever i needed help.. :D

the girl downstairs.. lol you moved in last sem.. i never get the chance to know u but still thanks for borrowing ur phone to me last friday even thought you were in a hurry..

this weekend most of u guys were away.. and back hometown i guess? the whole house was really quiet lol.. its weird.. its not normal.. lol.. it feels empty..

i have to admit sometimes u guys were really noisy and i always thought it was annoying.. but on second thought, i never once hated it.. even thought i didn't mixed with u guys much, still it gave me a very warm feeling in the house.. :D to me you guys are like my siblings back home.. where siblings sometimes can be annoying.. where you fight with each other, play with each other, get annoyed with each other.. etc etc.. even though most of the time u say ur siblings are annoying.. u hate them and bla bla bla.. but still.. no matter how worse the condition is, u cant ever hate them.. or find the reason to hate them.. because they're your family.. where u feel very comfortable around them..

time flies off so fast that its already 2 years since we've been living together.. and we've got so used to each other presence at home.. and its comfortable.. well.. to me.. i don't know about u guys xD

my point of this post is that.. i just want u guys to know that u've left a very deep impression, a deep influence in my life.. which i think its a good thing.. :D i'll always remember the time that we spent together.. all the happy times... the bad times.. the "awkward with each other" times, the birthdays.. the "no electricity" times.. the steamboat times.. the kacau-ing tan yeeling times.. and alot more..

and all i want to say is that.. im really.. trully and sincerely appologise if all these while.. if i ever offended or did anything that makes u feel offended which i am not aware of.. i hereby sincerely appologise.. :D

and erm.. i know i didn't do much as a good housemate to you guys, where i only gives trouble to you guys.. but i'll promise i'll do better :D

and i really do love u guys hehe..

i dedicated this song to u guys..

forever happy together~ xD

i know its korean but it has sub :D

lurve, lisa ;D

PS : i have a request.. can we take a picture together? xD before suyi and yeeling moves out. :( and oh i know this post can be disgustingly cheezy hehe.. still bare with it kay? ;D and congratz.. coz u're able to read till the end of the post without puking over my cheezy post :P

bye bye hair~

2010-04-08T12:28:00.002+08:00

i finally get myself a haircut after 6 months.. it was so long and out of control.. i couldn't stand it and instantly made up my mind to cut it off..

so its a little shorter now.. more neat and tidy.. and thinner? o.O

i think its a little old fashioned =/

reminds me of "friends" monica's hair on the 1st season

lol.. maybe is just me.. coz i'm on "friends" marathon lately.. lol..

oh.. you want to see it?

well okay.. i'm going to post it up maybe.. never? LOL..

sorry im really lazy to upload pictures/photos of my "hair" for now.. :D

especially with such stuck up internet connection lately..

paranoid

2010-04-08T01:48:00.002+08:00

PPS and stupid streamyx cacated connection has turned me into a paranoid person

where i keep suspecting.. and have these delusions where other people purposely messed up the line.. when most of the time it wasn't true..

oh dear i need help..

Parcel from mom

2010-04-07T13:18:00.004+08:00

have you ever receive a parcel?

i mean just casual stuff you got it back home..

stuff that you wanted.

its fun.. :D

it makes you happy

by just thinking

oh its from mom, its from home..

especially you're so far away from home..

its nice ;)

just got it today...

thx mom :D

you want to know what's inside? lol..

its just shampoo and conditioner and other things xD

haha.. ;P

you might be thinking.. ugh.. WHT? just that? y can't you buy it yourself?

but then.. if you were me.. its different from buying it yourself..

coz its from mom :P

it gave u a warm feeling

its annoying..

2010-04-05T11:15:00.002+08:00

its annoying

when the internet line is so bloody retarded lately..

its annoying

sometimes when i think of my housemates

but i just can't seem to ever hate them at all..

its annoying

because i'm a student

its annoying

because i have such limited allowance

its annoying

when i have to pay and spend on so many things that i need and require to

its annoying

when my tutorial mates come to me and say "hey you haven't pay the class fees! and you're the last~!"

its annoying

when you have to bloody celebrate most of your classmates birthday

its annoying

when there's so many assignments to do until you do not have time for yourself

its annoying

when you can't help for being a snob

its annoying

everytime when i overslept!

its annoying

when everyone gets "the topic" and i don't

its annoying

when i finally got the time to sleep,

i can't fall asleep

its annoying

that the people in this universe is so stereotypical

its annoying

when my family calls in for emergency

where i wanted to help

but i'm so far away

its annoying

when my phone credits finished

its annoying

when the stupid atm broke down/no more cash in it

its annoying

because kampar is so bloody hot most of the days

its annoying

when you are about to go class, it rains

its annoying

to live alone in a small room

its annoying

when its time to eat, you don't know what to eat

its annoying

when you have to eat alone

its annoying

when you can't seem to fit in

its annoying

for being such an emotional freak

its annoying

for having such low self esteem

its annoying

being a lazy person

its annoying

when you feel unmotivated

its annoying

when you unconsciously procrastinating

and gets your work undone in time

its annoying

being a heavy sleeper

where 3 alarm clocks has no effect at all

its annoying

sometimes when people tell you what you're suppose to do in your life

and starts to get bossy and act as if they know it all..

even though their intentions were good..

its still annoying

its annoying

when you didn't do well in an exam

its annoying

when someone stab you in the back

its annoying

when you have to cycle to class under the hot sun

when other people just drive to uni

its annoying

when there are things you really want

but you have no power in obtaining

its annoying

when you don't know what you want!

its annoying

being ignorant

its annoying

being fat

its annoying

when you love the good food so much lol..

its annoying

for being four-eyed

its annoying

that most of your cousins are so outstanding

its annoying

for being the eldest in the family

its annoying

that there are so many spoiled brats in this world

its annoying

when there are "people" who like to make you as their "god sis/bro" for fun

as soon as they just got to know you

its annoying

that people loves to do the "pouting face" while camwhoring..

where the "pig" face makes you look so effing retarded..

because you look 1000 times better without them

and it is not even close to "cute"

its annoying

when people just don't agree with you sometimes

its annoying

when people you're talking with is being sarcastic

its annoying

when people think they're so smart

when they don't

its annoying

when people just laugh at you

its annoying

when you're talking and nobody is listening

its annoying

when you're force to watch a horror movie

its annoying

when you have to be responsible

its annoying

when your brains got stuck and ran out of ideas

its annoying

when you're in a deep shit

its annoying

when you got misunderstood

its annoying

when you're so far away from home

its annoying

that the human mind is so complicated

its annoying

when shit happens

its annoying.. its annoying..

and the annoying list will never stop.

why do all these happen?

because this is the real world..

the reality is annoying

its a pain in the ass

@_@ im getting cranky for nothing... lol.. all these thoughts just somehow pops out in my brains.. that its freakishly annoying..

don't worry coz i'm perfectly fine lol..

gah.. i don't know what i'm saying anymore..

im off to bed.. then go class later at 3pm..

c ya..

i must go to class today...

2010-04-05T11:06:00.003+08:00

i must go to class today..

i must, i must~

i got tagged

2010-03-28T17:25:00.003+08:00

i got tagged by thung lim

Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits or goals about you. At the end, choose five people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don’t forget to leave a comment (“You’re tagged!”), and to read your blog, you can’t tag a person who tagged you. Since you can’t tag me, let me know when you’ve posted your blog, so I can see your weirdness.

Lisa's 16 random things/habits/goals :

1) im hungry.. don't know what to eat

2) i'm officially broke after sushow 2

3) my room is in a mess that i can't even see my floor xD wahahahaha..

4)im hungry..

5) im obsessed with suju.. @_@

6) i have S.A.D @_@ and i can't get over it

7) i hate durians

8) i've never had long nails before.. not even once! whenever i see my nails grow 1- 2mm long.. i'll cut them off.. somehow long nails gets on my nerve.. @_@

9) i want to graduate!~ @_@

10) i think earth hour is useless =x

11) i want to go to korea someday lol..

12) im hungry.. and why there's so many list? @_@

13) imma cheapskate =x

14) alot of people doesn't believe me.. but im an ex-johor swimmer =x

15) i love apple :D

16) and i love green and yellow lol.. (totally random xD)

well..let see, who should i tag?
im going to tag.... NO ONE!!! *happy* :D

im bored..

2010-03-27T17:34:00.004+08:00

im bored.. and i'm hungry.. my line is freakin slow.. and im broke like shit after sushow2..

i was about to go out tapau my lunch+dinner = dinch? lunner? luncher? watever.. =.=

as i am saying.. i was about to go out and it rains =.=

ugh.. so im stalking suju with my slowwwwwwwwww connection :D

my SAD symptoms haven't subside yet.. i thought i saw hyukkie while walking along the corridors in uni the other day..

on second look.. chey... *yawn* it was some boy who doesn't look any bit like my hyukkie.. what was i thinking?

then i thought i saw kyunnie lol..

but it was another boy =.=

maybe i was tired that day.. coz i was so busy rushing assignment and wasn't able to sleep much heheheh..

Do you have "SAD"?

2010-03-22T19:44:00.003+08:00

Do you have SAD?

SAD stands for = "Sushow Aftermath Disorder"

Most people who allegedly diagnosed with "SAD" are mostly said to have symptoms like, day dreaming of the Suju member's dancing on stage and thinking of how handsome and charming they were, they also find themselves hallucinating about the sights of the Suju members talking, waving, singing, etc etc to them, they can't concentrate on their work, daily routines affected due to the hallucinating and day dreaming, feels empty, emotional, going through all suju shows, spamming their songs, non stop talking about how awesome they were during Sushow 2, etc etc and many possible symptoms that are slightly related.

If you think you have SAD. the most effective way is to :

bang your head on the wall several times (most effective).
keep watching all their shows on youtube and spam their songs until you are satisfied (only works if you have plenty of time).
bite yourself.
bang your head on the wall.
bang your head on the wall.
ask someone to hit you on the head with a baseball bat.
bang your head on the wall.
fly to korea and kidnapped them.
buy a human size poster on any members and stick it to your bolster and do whatever you like to it.
bang your head to the wall.

if any of these solution doesn't work.. please see your nearest counseling centre or see a psychiatrist.

good luck!

Super Show 2 live in Malaysia!

2010-03-22T04:02:00.012+08:00

haha.. this could be the greatest event in my life coz i've been to SUPER JUNIOR's CONCERT!!

kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa xD *excited*

i don't know how to put the AWESOME-ness of the concert in words xD

so i'll just let the pictures and videos to do the talking ;)

this is the video that was taken by us (me and hui ling) lol.. well there's more videos but i couldn't find the time and good internet connection speed to upload them. so for now.. only this :D

they're performing f(x) - chu~

hyukkie's outfit (the one in blue) made me scream like some crazy fan girl lol..

and yes he's a guy.. they're doing a parody.. coz f(x) is a korean girl group

tickets

look at the crowd!

so near yet so far~ xD

anyway this doll may seem ordinary but its no ordinary at all~

teukie threw this doll at me and hui ling's direction..

when i was about to grab hold of it,

all the fans just gushed towards us and pushed us down

someone even pulled my hair!

and my glasses dropped off..

it was really violent =.=

and i was yelling at hui ling who got pushed down as well

to grab that doll

lol..

and she did..

since she's the one who manage to grab hold of the doll..

then wouldn't that make her the lucky owner?

anyway.. such a pity.. but still

its just a doll

i'm cool with it

ehem..

actually there's still lots of pictures.. but i am very lazy to upload them.. it takes forever to upload them.. if you're interested then, go view it through my facebook lol..

i found this video taken by other fans on youtube.. performing my fav song, "what if by super junior"

i manage to record this song performance through my phone cam but the quality is really sucky and only lasted for like 30 secs lol.. no point of uploading.. i shall kept it for myself then ;P

till then.. i missed them already =(

they all look so dreamy and unrealistically real lol.. too charming and handsome.. and plus there are like so many of them!.. super junior consist of 13 members! i kept starring at them so that i can photocopy of their real faces into my mind that i didn't really payed attention to what they sang =x

lol..

but still i enjoyed myself ;D

oh my video just finish uploaded xD here's "a man in love "

stargazing

2010-03-13T04:03:00.003+08:00

Have you experienced stargazing before? i have.. i just did.. just now :D

me and tiffany was walking home and saw some students hanging out at the basketball court with a guitar, chit chatting.. so both of us felt like hang around coz the night breeze was awesome.. it was so cooling and nice..

after sitting down only we realize there's lots of stars tonight.. it was so beautiful.. i even spotted a shooting star for the very first time.. it was really awesome!

after a while lying down at the basket ball court stargazing, passers by saw us and come stargazing with us as well.. it was really nice.. it was peaceful.. the sound of the crickets, sound of people around us softly chatting away.. the breeze was blowing, the sound of the students singing with their guitar..

it was fun.. it feels like the world suddenly become so wide and big.. and quiet for a moment..

it feels like all your stress and frustration got absorbed away from you..

what's even nicer, you spotted a shooting star.. :D

woohoo~!

2010-03-09T17:30:00.004+08:00

wohoo!! i got accepted into Malaysia Cyber Care ~ *jumps around happily* :D:D:D

and i thought i would fail and ended up with UTAR placement.. =/

anyway~ i got accepted!!! AHAHAHHAHAHA

till then.. got lots to do.. ahh busy busy~~ :D

PS : Malaysia Cyber Care is my intern placement.. still dunno wad is that go google yourself ;D

I cried more than 1 litre of tears over a drama!

2010-02-28T07:38:00.005+08:00

I finally finished watching 1 litre of tears after i had sworn for years that i will never watch tear jerking dramas..

one whole day!! i bloody sued the person who came up with the idea of shooting such beautiful sad story T_T it made me cried so much till my eyes got swollen @_@

the drama based on a book, a true story of Aya Kito. whom was diagnosed with a cruel degeneration disease call spinocerebellar Degeneration when she was 15 years old. It is a very cruel disease where it is incurable, and it will cause the patient to lose control all over their whole body dramatically which include walking, moving, eating, and talking.. and then slowly dying..

its too sad.. T_T but i can't stop watching.. its addictive.. and the whole drama was very worth watching..

kya.. Aya really is a amazing person.. after watching the whole series.. it made me ponder a while.. all along i thought my life is the worst.. it sucked.. and acted so childishly and foolishly.. cried and make a big fuss over little things and little problems that i came across,

when there could be people who are even less fortunate than me.. like Aya..

even though she can't walk, talk properly, move, eat, slowly losing all her abilities day by day and have to gave up so many things due to her disease.. she still can live on so strongly.. and never gave up really inspires me alot.

heh.. amazing.. trully amazing.. being compared to someone like her im not even a quartile eh? :)

and seriously this bloody song made me cried non stop!! RAWR everytime the episode ends, it had to end so sadly and pitiful..

till then~ ;D

PS : if u intend to watch this drama.. please prepare a box of tissue and yeah.. lots of tears :P

and.. oh a big bottle of water to keep ur body fluid in balance in case u cried too much and cause dehydration!! :P bleh.. just kidding!!.. xD

but its definitely worth it ;) especially u are thinking that ur life is full of misery and any negative thoughts of suiciding, "im a useless person", i have NOTHING! my life sucked!!.. etc, etc..

watch it.. and think again :)

Honey and clover

2010-02-25T06:33:00.006+08:00

As time passes, the day will come

when everything will fade to memories

but..

Those miraculous days,

when you and i..

along with everyone else,

search together for that one thing

will continue revolving forever..

somewhere deep in my heart

as a bittersweet memory.

***

sob... T_T touching sia.. i finally finished watching honey and clover.. its a bloody good anime that everyone should watch..

can we ban it?

2010-02-23T00:03:00.002+08:00

ok i now declare officially that

I DO NOT USE PPSTREAM ANYMORE~!

because they took down the english series channel..

so can the government banned it now?

coz many people are using it.. people who knows how to read mandarin...

they are taking over the internet bandwidth!!

RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

banned pps! banned pps! banned pps! banned pps! banned pps! banned pps! banned pps! banned pps! banned pps! banned pps! banned pps! banned pps! banned pps! banned pps!

im going home!!

2010-02-10T07:15:00.002+08:00

GOOD MORNING!! :D

i just finished all my reports and tutorials =.= i've been doing it whole night! 3 subjects altogether.

i/o psychology
politic
CMT self report

CNY is so near and these lecturers are creating stuff for us to do =.= *Sigh* 2 is suppose to be handed up on thursday and 1 on friday.. and because im going home today, later at 11.36am by train, i couldn't attend classes for the next two days which are thursday and friday.. and yes i applied for leave already.. but not sure whether it has been approved or not.. so wateverh.. i really have lots of things in mind now.. so im not going to take that one and add into the problems or things that i've already been stressing on..

still i think i'll be approve anyway :P so.. yeah.. wat the heck? if its not then we'll have to make it approved then.. VISUALIZE~~ we have to VISUALIZE~~~

*sending electromagnative brainwave - zzzzzzzzzzzz make it approve.. approve it!! RAWR*

anyhoo.. mom just called.. she was so excited that im going home today.. coz she has LOTS for me to do.. she even list down the things on the phone..

mom : hey i want u do go do this this this on wednesday.. then i want u to bath ur hammies, they stink.. and we don't know how to bath them.. and i want u to do this this on thursday... bla bla bla and bla bla bla...

Me : *totally speechless*

then after a long listing of what i'll be doing when i got home.. then only she tell me to becareful while traveling.. what to bring what not to bring.. then this and that.. lol..

thanks mom.. i'll be extra careful so i can come home and help u finish off things that u can't do =/

ugh.. alright its already 7.35am now.. and im bloody late.. my room is still in a mess!! i was suppose to clean the room last night and then pack.. and slack then sleep!

thanks for the moutain workloads my honourable lecturers~ =.= i make sure i wrote alot.. so u can enjoy ur CNY....

with our answers muahahhahahhaa *evil*

gotta go~ c ya ;) wish me a safe trip k?

Tickets Tickets!!! i want THOSE TICKETS RAWR

2010-02-08T08:12:00.004+08:00

CNY is so bloody near.. every one is so busy planning when to go home for CNY.. which i think its really annoying~ especially u're far away from home.. and u don't have a car or any transportation with you.

this is where u need to start plan WHEN to start buy bus/train/flight tickets so u can get home on time.. if you're late.. then bye bye CNY and hello lonely CNY~

whats even worse when your uni only have 2 days of cny holiday and most of your lecturers are chinese, where they plan to take a few days off class by start replacing it 2-3 weeks earlier and yet there's not enough lecture halls and classes to do so.. therefore, they'll drag and drag.. and drag the idea whether to let us off early for the holidays or kept us until the last day..

THis is so confusing!! i have CMT tutorial (counseling method and technique) on Friday 8am. This sem we're having some sort of a practical kind of assignment where we're doing group counselling and every of our attendence counts! which adds up to the chaotic situation.

some lecturers even refuse to cancel any classes.. which i think it was kinda selfish =/

especially to us students who their hometown are miles and miles away..

argh!! THIS IS SO ANNOYING!!!

i found out that the train tickets are obviously totally sold out on thursday, friday and saturday. so i was thinking to just not care about anything and buy wednesday train tickets and skipped the remaining 2 days maybe just apply for leave.. if its possible. finally screwing up my brains to figure things, out i was so eager to buy that bloody ticket and end this headache of mine once and for all! but another problem occured!

stupid laaaaaaaaaaaaa... i dun remember there's such thing the last time i bought the tickets online.. i tried ask dad.. and he got no idea at all.. =.=

i think he's not really that willing to tell me his card password and all.. i remembered last time when i first asked him about it he was so defensive and i ended up being scolded =.=

*sigh*

what is wrong with all these horny people?

2010-02-04T02:02:00.006+08:00

i was busy searching for info on my child development assignment.. then this dude msg me which is have totally no clue WHEN THE HECK DID I ADD HIM?!

sakariya says:

hii

how are you babe?

sakariya just sent you a nudge.

sakariya says:

busy??

* ~L i s a ~ * - shitty lag.. =.= says:

who r u?

sakariya says:

m sakariya from dubai

* ~L i s a ~ * - shitty lag.. =.= says:

ooo

sakariya says:

i just tried to talk,if u dnt mind

* ~L i s a ~ * - shitty lag.. =.= says:

im actually kinda busy with assignments so.. maybe next time

sakariya says:

ohhhhh

sad

i wud like to c u a minute

can i?

* ~L i s a ~ * - shitty lag.. =.= says:

sorry im really busy.. and i got to sleep in like 10 minutes time i have class tomorrow morning..

sakariya says:

k ur wish

i miss u (yeah.. right.. right.. *sarcastic* like i do even know u)

wanna c me?

* ~L i s a ~ * - shitty lag.. =.= says:

no (hell no?)

sakariya says:

then carryon

vl c u next time

* ~L i s a ~ * - shitty lag.. =.= says:

yeah.. watever bye.. ( like i will see u again.. *click block and delete + report abused user*)

sakariya says:

hav a t8 sleeeeeeeeeeeep

*disgusted* i don't know why i still have the patience to reply him .. zzz

cmon la.. if u're horny.. go to a pornsite and jerk urself out =.= don't bother other people laaa!!

(like i care =.=)

there was even once this pathetic joker.. came to me and tell me he's horny ask me to help him.. LOL..

seriously lately there are lots of weird people adding me.. which are like THAT! ^

what's wrong with msn lately? geezz..

last week was this girl added me on msn.. and same thing happens lol.. i told her i wasn't interested especially girls lol..

girls out there.. if there's anyone like him saying he want to see u.. or ask u to see him.. do not accept alright? he's trying to use u for his "pleasure"

so unless if u're like him, too then.. i have nothing to say.. but do becareful..

A LITTLE PIECE OF ADVICE ON HOW TO DEAL :

if you HAVE the time to talk to these people and not wanting to join them in another way that you do not look like you're a coward coz u don't wanna join them.. (*SIGH* I DUNNO WAD IM TALKING)

its best that u do not reply them in a very teasing way like trying to joke around. they'll think you're interested.. and the conversation will never end in a very weird horny way lol.. do not keep on resisting like "i don't want la.. yer.. eww u.." or start scolding them.. they'll think you are saying no but actually u want it.. =.=

so if u don't want it.. just tell them straight :D they'll go away..

alright im off back to work.. c ya!

Of Kiasu and Kiasi

2010-02-03T22:07:00.002+08:00

i sometimes really wish i'm those kind of people where Singaporeans refer these people as Kiasu (scared of losing - direct translation) and Kiasi (scared of death - direct translation) and are usually being made fun off.. i think they're really admirable lol.. they work their ass off over little things.. coz they are scared of losing to other people.. whatever they does, they must indeed be the top.

whereas "kiasi" people, they are scared of dying lol.. so they take really really good care and i mean really really detail type of diet so they will not caught cancer and die off early lol..

"kiasi" people are not just people who are scared of dying.. they are also can be refered as "cowards" coz they scared they will get trouble if they don't do things or some orders that were given to them.. so they just do accordingly..

Kiasu and Kiasi people are always paranoid.. everything is always evolving around them and about themself.. which is selfishingly admirable.. sometimes selfish is a good thing.. u love yourself so much you that you do not even want to get hurt even once.. u protect yourself perfectly..

why do i really said i sometimes wish i were like that or i have such traits.. i can be really lazy and i don't really care.. everything i did.. i did it on last minute.. sometimes even worse.. i could be like.. "ah watever.. die then die lah!" whereas kiasu people.. if they were given a task, they will finish it ASAP.. because they want it to be the first to finish.. whereas kiasi people.. they are affraid they will get into trouble if they don't do.. so they'll do it anyway..

and i realize, kiasu and kiasi people they have such fear of losing something which actually produce a kind of motivation to keep them going.. which is a bloody good thing!

*sigh*..

why can't i be more like them?

how can i develop such traits?

tell me!! coz i want it!

maybe i should go singapore? lol.. joking.. ;D

PS : if u seriously still have no idea what is kiasu and kiasi refer to this link : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kiasu

somewhere out there..

2010-01-31T00:40:00.001+08:00

ah reminds me of watching it again :D

here i go again..

2010-01-28T19:33:00.003+08:00

when u're feeling all shitty and sad.. and like u could just dig a hole and bury yourself in alive..

or when u feel like dying.. u're the most useless or pathetic person in the world..

just CRY~

cry your hearts out..

cry till you're satisfied..

cry till your eyes swollen like gold fish

just cry..

when u're able to cry..

u'll feel sooo much better..

coz unlike me.. i feel like dying, feeling all shitty.. feeling like bury myself in alive.. my brains and my skull are going to burst any moment.. but my tears just don't come down..

and that makes me feel even shittier!!

and i can't take it anymore!!!!!! RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

screw fyp!!

screw internship app!!

screw my stupidity!!

screw utar!!

screw the world!!!

RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

*throw pillows and roll on the bed and kick around like 5 yr old kid*

what do you do?

2010-01-25T03:42:00.002+08:00

what do you do while you had your shower? LOL!! not something weird .. what im trying to say is.. instead of just washing urself.. what do you think of while you're showering?

lol.. i had these very random thoughts where my super ego keeps telling me that i have so many things to do.. where i have to study! clean up my room.. my lifestyle is so bloody messy and i have to fix them right this instance.. and i was telling myself yes yes.. i got to do that right away..

but then right after i came out from the shower.. every thought gone lol..

maybe i should just fix some shower all on the ceiling of my room.. so that i'll keep shower 24/7 to make sure i get everything done lol..

is it just me plain weird thinking all these stuff while showering? or its just normal? LOL..

never mind..

alright enough randomness.. im going to bed.. gdnite ;D

jealousy

2010-01-25T03:36:00.002+08:00

why jealous of others?

when others could be jealous of you at the same time?

why must they be jealous of you?

coz u have something that they don't have

so don't jealous of others

instead..

be happy with what you have

that others don't

wouldn't that be better?

save the anger

save the unpleasant feeling that you gave urself

and just be happy

cheerios ;)