Bye 2011

great mashup :)

these songs brings me flashback of what i've did throughout the whole year. Although it feels like a LONG... year with full of shiets and some good stuffs.. few anchor events that made an impact this year.. the good and bad ones.. =/

• the great flood on February
• the flood aftermath struggle
• final year project
• death of Kiki and Fluffy D:
• semester extension
• friend breakup
• made new friends and great friends
• graduated
• family crisis
• job hunting
• got myself a new pet cat! Roxy <3
• stomach ulcer

someone once told me, if throughout the year, you felt as if time flies so fast then it is not a good year, coz you've done nothing much, learn nothing much and nothing much to yearn for. a good year is that you've felt that time flies slowly or moderately.. and full of "happening" events. that's what MAKES that year a great year..

maybe my 2011 wasn't that bad afterall :)

so.. 2012?lol.. i'm ready ;) bring it on!

2012 will be alot more better.

so everyone,

HAVE A GREAT NEW YEAR 2012!

;)

Bangau oh bangau..

stop bangau-ing!

get it?! ;)

This is real life..

I finally finished my studies.. yes. graduated *PROUD*

well.. the joy of graduating only lasted for merely 1 day?

without me knowing it.. i've already now on my way to a new chapter in life.

feels like everything back to zero point.
a brand new start.

a new start to look for a new pathway in life..
not just me, i think my family is on its way on a new chapter too..
therefore
so many "eventful" stuffs happened lately..
things don't always work out the way we want it to be..

eventhough i say its tiring, its painful, its harsh, its frustrating.. and the story goes on, i realize.. like the song..

that everything that im experiencing.
is real life..
and in real life.. nothing is perfect.

but in real life..
things will never stay bad all the times.. things will also never stay perfectly the way it is all the time.
nothing stays the same forever..

therefore, what im trying to say is,

even though things seems to be in a rough now.. but in the end i have a strong feeling that we will made it. in the most glorious ways.

:)

watch me/us ;D

Graduation? Supposingly...

Its Friday, 9/9/2011 now, officially..

few years back.. if i do not have the thoughts of giving up on my studies i'll be graduating by this weekend now.. throwing hats.. supposingly~

yeah i screwed up.. it was stupid because i did it on purpose. i wasn't right in the head at that time.. so yeah.. =/

well doesn't everyone have that screwing up moments in their life?

(here i am with my defensive pattern)

so here i am now.. i'll be lying if i said i am ok now.

i am not ok now coz ..

most of my friends were asking if i will be there on their graduation this weekend. to be honest i wanted to go.. i am trully happy for them really. i want to take pictures with them, throw hats with them. laugh. be with everyone for the last time before we go seperate ways..

the problem is, i am.. not.. graduating.. along.. with... them...

i told mom i wanted to go.. and i said i'll be fine.

after hearing me, she got mad and scolded me.. and then

she asked me.. "what if u're there.. and suddenly u're not fine at all?"

yeah.. what if i am there.. and i found out that i am completely not fine at all?

on second thoughts..

i still have finals coming up.. this is my final moment to make sure everything goes well so i can graduate..

on another thoughts.. if i go for their graduation this time.. when the time comes, will they do the same for me in return? i doubt it..

by that time, i doubt they've probably forgotten about me already..

well this feeling feels like deja vu, i remembered the me 11 years back.

at that time it was swimming competition.. i wanted to join. but Cikgu Ali didn't register for me for the reason, SKCC did not join any swimming competition for years ever since Ruyi sister left the school.. something like that. (more like he's just too lazy to help me register).

on that competition day i was crying alot, feeling sad and angry.. for i've trained so hard for nothing.. what's more my friends laughed at me.. saying..

"what is this? You? swimming competition? who do you think you are? you're so fat. i doubt when you jumped into the water, the pool dries up.. ha ha ha ha ha.. do you think anyone can just joined a swimming competition JUST like that?! ceh!"

anyway the following years i joined by myself without that shitty teacher's help.. and got my ways towards MSSM lol.

Therefore, as a conclusion,

the moral of the whole story.. (althought it might be irrelavant.. or totally irrelevant~)

so what if i've im late by one semester?

even the story of the race between the rabbit and the tortoise proves that its ok to be slow.. we just need to move at our own pace..

:)

what if i've made the wrong decision at that time? the point now is that i've been given a second chance.. i have another chance to make this right don't i?

so, as long as i graduate in the end.. is still good eh? therefore, its still not my worst yet. it is not the end of YEO LI SA YET! :D

to my friends,

congratulations to all who've already made it.

i'm very proud of u guys.

but i can't join you yet..

because, i have more important things to do..

i'll catch up with u guys.. so watch me ;P

心

i was watching Himitsu no arashi just now..

Aoi Yuu was the guest.. i got interested on her.. coz she co-starred with Sakurai few years back in "Honey and Clover movie"

so in HnA, she was promoting her latest movie at that time.. entitled,

"Raiou" or aka, "The Lightning Tree"

instead of attracted to the movie, i got interested in the background song of the trailer instead. xD

song by Maika - Kokoro

Aoi Yuu and Masaki Okada are both so cute together in the mv.. ^^

ahh.. too bad i hv finals tmr.. or else i'll start watching the movie already..

"Raiou" is a love story.. (from my understanding by watching the trailer) lol.. According to Matsujun, its a modern type of Romeo and Juliet story.. =/

bet its gonna be a tragic love story all over again.. but it seems interesting at the same time.. so i don't really mind now :D haha.

short hair~

i've cutted my hair~

just few days back..

so its kinda short now~

lol.

gosh..

i look like some 5 yr old kid =.=

lol.. :P sorry got taken away with the webcam

haha.

no im not trying to be cute.. just playing with the webcam function haha.

FYP.. what have you done to me?

i just realize, i've been wearing the same shirt, and the same pants ever since yesterday..

what embarass me most is that i wore the same shirt and pants to library yesterday and i've returned to the library today, as in now (blogging frm library) with the same outfit..

=.=

yes i stink now.. and i can't go home.. its raining so heavily outside.. and i forgot my umbrella while i was rushing to see Dr Lee.. =.=

and i've just realize i haven't ate anything since last night.. my stomach is grumbling like crazy.. and what make it worst is that i forgot to bring my purse along with me..

i've been rushing my thesis deadline like crazy that i totally i forgot about myself lol..

this is the first..

FYP, what have you done to me?

=.= rain.. faster stop.. i wan go home, bath and eat..

Crazy little thing call love...

Ha.. just finished watching some Thai movie lol.. copied the show from Thung Lim last last week? haha.. Mario Maurer (aka Shone.. lead actor fyi) is cute lol..

trailer~

story about a girl, Nam have a huge crush on Shone, a popular guy, a pretty boy in school.. well she did almost everything to get his attention, including following some superstitious book that teaches on how to get a boy to fall for you, something like tat.. eventually.. she became pretty~

=3 so pretty~

anyway this show is just too sweet haha.. reminded me of some good old days back =x lol.. and some human being~ :P i wonder how is he doing now? :D

anyway.. back to work.. i need to rush my FYP (final year project) =.= deadline due next friday..

im so screwed.. still stuck on chapter 1 *sigh* why is my progress this slow? =.=

well actualy i know why =x

ok now.. bb ^^

long time no see?

long time no see~ RAIN!

ahh i missed rain :D tell u a secret.. i can control rain~ LOL!

why i said so?

because it always rains whenever i said it will! :P

i wake up this morning with an annoying sun rays striking in through my room window..

i got annoyed and thought to myself.. bloody hot sunlight. U SHALL DISSAPEAR TODAY! RAIN SHALL COME.. MARK MY WORDS~ .. . .. .. .....

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..

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and so i went to uni, not long after tat, rain pour like mad! WOOHHH!!! *excited* \o/

hohoho.. i can be the weather god anytime now :Pv

its still drizzling now.. but this afternoon was HEAVY! \o/ got soaked in the rain this afternoon.. *HAPPY* :D :D :D :D

anyhow.. another thing long time no see..

i have this "SUDDEN ANNIVERSARY PERIOD" attack this morning.. finally.. i feel HEALTHY all the sudden~ ^^v

it was so sudden.. i wasn't prepared.. found out in the middle of my extra classes.. and i was like "OH SHIT!" -immediately rush home-

i mean i've been allergedly diagnose with "non-existing pregnancy" for almost one year now.. (if u know what i mean) somehow it feels like i've finally delivered out some "non-existence fetus" @_@.. i wonder if this explains much of my mood swings these few days..

well..

anyhoo~ ITS OUT!!

IM A WOMAN AGAIN~~!!! \o/

:D

Gastric ....

Yesterday night.. all the sudden i got attacked by gastric. around 12am =.=

it got so so so so so pain, i can't barely sit properly, lie down properly, stand properly..

ended up vomited twice =..= disgusting like crazy.. i can still feel those.. ugh.

after tossing and turning, in and out of the bathroom, for 3 hours, i couldn't take it anymore..

i don't know how.. i manage to drive out to town to the nearest 24 hour clinique..

but it was not open..

.....

the pain got worse, so i tried sitting in the car waiting for the pain to subside but it didn't..

after 20 minutes, i thought i would die there in the car.. i ended calling up suk xia asking for help.

i trully thank her for tat.. she came right after and send me to the Kampar Hospital. (the least place that i want to be in - why? coz kampar hospital suck to the max)

as i've expected. there's no doctor.. well just nurse.. or aka "assistant doctor" he said so himself. =.=

he ended up gave me some magnesium syrrup kinda thing and the pain started to subside. but its still hurting.. so he ended up asking a lady nurse to gimme a jab on the butt =.=

after 2 hours there. the pain really subsided so we went bck.. drop by 7-11 buy some bread and soya while suk xia ate her early breakfast

after i got home the pain comes back again.. ugh. i ended up drive myself out to the nearest 24hours clinique.. it was 7am tat time. it had to see a doctor! not an assistant doctor =.= just in case something "MORE" than gastric.. coz it was so so so so painful..

in the end the 24hours doctor said it was just gastric.. but it was kinda severe type.. so im not allowed to eat sweet, spicy, salty, fried stuff.. and the list goes on.

told mom about it.. got myself nagged =.= and then said if i dont take care of my gastric it would turn out to be some kinda cancer talk.. lol..

=.=""

oh well.. wish me well.. it still hurts though.. i eat also pain.. no eat also pain.. why are you like this STOMACH?!

PS : for kamparians, especially students.. a little piece of advice, if you're living alone and u had some sort of health emergencies late night.. 24 hours clinique is still available. i didn't know really.. if u happens to visit there around 2-4am.. the clinique seems like there's no one it in.. still don't HESITATE to call out or just ring the bell at the left side of the big door.. someone will come out and attend to you. but u have to wait at least 10 minutes for the doctor to wake up and wash his face.. =/ don't be suprise if u see him attend to u in a sleepy condition. =.= well that's kampar clinique for u. its better than nothing really.